The Soul of an Ugly Duckling

JK Divorce Entrance Dance

2009-08-30T10:26:00.000+03:00

The JK Divorce Entrance!!! Hillaruis!!!

A safety warning to all drivers, FOG is here!

2009-02-10T12:36:00.000+03:00

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN

The best advice we can give to drivers confronted with thick fog is to get off the road as soon as possible. If you can't or won't pull off the road we offer the following advice:

1-Keep your minimum safety gap to three seconds in ideal conditions; with the decreased visibility fog causes, this interval should be increased substantially.
Slow down. Most fog-related traffic fatalities occur because someone was driving too fast and couldn't stop in time to avoid a collision.

2-Make sure that you can be seen. Turn on your fog lights, and use low beams. High beams direct light up into the fog making it difficult for you to see. Low beams direct light down onto the road and help other drivers to see you.

3-If you leave the road, be sure to pull off completely. Turn off your driving lights and turn on your flashers so others know you're there but won't think you are driving on the road.
Always use your defroster and windscreen wipers in foggy conditions to keep the windows clear.

4-Keep an eye on your speedometer and maintain a slow, constant speed.
Remember that other drivers have a limited sight distance and that fog can leave roadways slick. Signal early, and when you use your brakes, don't stomp on them.

Fog is a meteorological phenomenon caused by a supersaturation of the air, so that it can no longer hold water vapor. The water vapor precipitates out into small droplets of condensation, or fog. The processes which form fog are similar to those which make clouds, although fog forms close to the ground, rather than higher up in the atmosphere. Because visibility can be limited in foggy conditions, care should be taken when driving or walking in the fog, especially since it tends to muffle and distort sound, potentially rendering people unaware of hazards.

Fog happens whenever the air reaches a point of extremely high humidity. Most commonly, it happens when the air rapidly cools, causing condensation to form. There are a number of types of fog, named for the conditions which create them. Drivers who are navigating in fog should use low beams or fog lights, rather than high beams, which will simply reflect from the fog and create glare.

Along the shores of oceans and large bodies of water, advection fog happens when moist air from the water passes over the cooler surface of the land. Frequently, warmer weather inland sucks the moist air across the land, creating a thick blanket of fog. Advection fog happens most frequently around the ocean because the salt increases the humidity, and condensation can form at a much lower humidity level around salt.

Another common type of fog is radiation fog. Radiation fog usually occurs after dark, when the Earth radiates heat outwards. As the heat rises, it is cooled, causing saturation conditions and fog. Radiation fog usually clings close to the ground, and disappears by mid-morning, once the day warms up enough to dissipate it. A variation on radiation fog, tule fog, is found in the Central Valley of California. Tule fog happens when cold mountain air sinks into a depression such as the valley at night. Warmer air above it presses the cold air down, causing fog to form and linger for days. This type of fog occurs in the fall and winter, when conditions on the mountains are colder.

A rare type of fog called ice fog can only be formed in extremely cold conditions such as those at the Arctic and Antarctic. When the ambient air temperature is substantially below the freezing point, but still humid, the water droplets which would normally form fog turn into small ice crystals instead. Ice fog can be dangerous to drive in, as the crystals cling to windshields and headlights.

DaNce Me tO tHe eNd oF LOVE

2009-02-07T17:39:00.000+03:00

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic 'til I'm gathered safely in
Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love
Oh let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone
Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon
Show me slowly what I only know the limits of
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the wedding now, dance me on and on
Dance me very tenderly and dance me very long
We're both of us beneath our love, we're both of us above
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the children who are asking to be born
Dance me through the curtains that our kisses have outworn
Raise a tent of shelter now, though every thread is torn
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in
Touch me with your naked hand or touch me with your glove
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love

In an interview, Leonard Cohen said of the song: 'Dance Me To The End Of Love' ... it's curious how songs begin because the origin of the song, every song, has a kind of grain or seed that somebody hands you or the world hands you and that's why the process is so mysterious about writing a song. But that came from just hearing or reading or knowing that in the death camps, beside the crematoria, in certain of the death camps, a string quartet[1] was pressed into performance while this horror was going on, those were the people whose fate was this horror also. And they would be playing classical music while their fellow prisoners were being killed and burnt. So, that music, "Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin," meaning the beauty there of being the consummation of life, the end of this existence and of the passionate element in that consummation. But, it is the same language that we use for surrender to the beloved, so that the song -- it's not important that anybody knows the genesis of it, because if the language comes from that passionate resource, it will be able to embrace all passionate activity.

Condo Unit for rent

2009-01-24T06:57:00.000+03:00

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Re-post from my freind Janice..Click on the link if ur intrested!

Good Morning!

Only A Heart That Wants You...

2009-01-15T18:21:00.001+03:00

No words to say
No way to feel
No tears to show
Only a heart left that wants you..

A dream of years,shattered
A romance of time,broken
A memoir of past,burnt,
Only a heart left that wants you

A wait for no tommorrow in sight
A battle too long to fight
A distance of miles to go
Only a heart left that wants you

A sun refusing to shine
A romance running out of rhyme
A life losing on wine
Only a heart left that wants you

No strength to carry on
No people to count on
No light to see on
Only a heart left that wants you

- Auther Unknown -

Only A heart that wants you...

2009-01-15T18:21:00.000+03:00

No words to say
No way to feel
No tears to show
Only a heart left that wants you..

A dream of years,shattered
A romance of time,broken
A memoir of past,burnt,
Only a heart left that wants you

A wait for no tommorrow in sight
A battle too long to fight
A distance of miles to go
Only a heart left that wants you

A sun refusing to shine
A romance running out of rhyme
A life losing on wine
Only a heart left that wants you

No strength to carry on
No people to count on
No light to see on
Only a heart left that wants you

- Auther Unknown -

What is ISO?

2009-01-12T08:00:00.000+03:00

Re-post from my Online Buddy Kuya Ardy!

For educational purpose only!

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Aperture and Shutter Priority Modes

2009-01-12T07:59:00.000+03:00

Re-Post from my Online Buddy Kuya Ardy

Thanks Po!

Link

Macro Photography Tips for Point and Shoot Digital Cameras

2009-01-05T10:05:00.000+03:00

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Another informative link..thanks Kuya Ardey!

The correct Exposure - a tutorial - Part 1: Shutter, Aperture and ISO

2009-01-05T07:27:00.000+03:00

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Hmb, click on the link for the tutorial

Credits to Kuya Ardel, thanks po!

Goodbye

2009-01-02T19:21:00.000+03:00

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And i know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your hurt and I sympathize
And I'll never critisize
All you ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want hold you back from where you might belong

You would never ask me why,
my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say - but goodbye

You deserve a chance of the kind of love,
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful for me
I don't want let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want hold you back from where you might belong

You would never ask me why,
my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say - but goodbye

You would never ask me why,
my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try,
and though it's gonna hurt us both,
there's no other way than to say goodbye

Goodbye

Goodbye (LoveSong) - Jessica Folcker

~ iNtroDuCing KONi..mY upGraDed CaM: NiKoN D9O

2008-12-23T12:40:00.000+03:00

Finally! after 3 long weeks of waiting for my camera to arrive, it is finally here!!!
I was never planning to upgrade to a new camera since I am still NEWBI in photography world,
I'm happy with my 1st ever D-SLR Nikon D80 "Niko"..but since you have the interest of buying ur own D-SLR within certain budget & I couldn't picture you buying almost the same D80 that I have..I thought it would not be practical...noh?

So the moment you suggested to buy my 3 & a half months old "Niko"
and suggested for me to upgrade to a new cam ( & you know I couldn't resist the idea) I didn't think twice! and my best option fall on the World's 1st DSLR with an HD movie mode..Nikon D90. The best similar camera to D80 which I liked and got used to specially because of its small size comparing to other cameras. I wouldn't regret that!

I order it with a very good deal from Amazon, my Nikon D90 Digital SLR Camera comes with 18-105mm AF-S DX VR Nikon Lens [Outfit] + Nikkor 70-300mm Lens + 16GB Card with Reader + EN-EL3e Battery + Case + Cleaning kit.
All worth $1,474.95!!! How cool is that?

I know it is a big risk for me to buy a recently released camera - less than 4 months in the market - with not so many reviews, but most were positive about the D90, still it's all on papers.. the real thing is in my hand now! wheeeeeeeew! Lols!!

I HOPE and I PRAY that my new baby wont fail me.. I'm sure we are gonna have lotsa fun and happy moments shooting, clicking & recorded on video along with your kuya! hehe

2009 is YOUR YEAR! May it will be full of good surprises and blessing!

For more information about Nikon D90 please refere to this nice illustrative review that gives more details about my camera

http://www.dcresource.com/reviews/nikon/d90-review/

~My Birthday Wishlist.. and for the Holidays 2008~

2008-12-14T07:51:00.000+03:00

This was my wishlist last year.. http://bubwity.multiply.com/journal/item/48

I know I was so greedy! Lols!

You asked me to write you my wishlist for this year's bday & holidays..and I've been telling you I can't think of anything I need from clothes, bags and shoes..etc cuz I've been doing my shopping on regular basis that's why i didn't write you my wishlist earlier.

I don't want gifts,Idon't want flowers, I don't want cake and candles, I don't want balloons, I'm sure i don't want a surprise B'day party..what I really think of and want with all my heart right now is this one dearest wish and if God grant me this I will not ask for another wish because it will make me happy for the rest of my life, for another birthdays to come..

If I only have this one wish..I wouldn't ask for more..I promise

a Lighter Shade of Blue

2008-11-16T09:24:00.000+03:00

The song I'm listening to today..

She doesn't smile like me
She doesn't make you weak
And she'll never know
How to make you laugh
But she wont make you cry
She'll never break your heart
Like I used to
If you only knew all the words I couldn't say

When I close my eyes I see you
In my dreams you will be near
Won't let you disappear
But I'm here on my own
When I close my eyes and listen
I am crying out for you
In the center of my heart
But I'm hear on my own

Oooooooooo, baby
Oooooooooo

I think I'm over you
But it's not true
It's just a lighter shade of blue
Oooooooo

Can you still hear me breathe
When you touched me deep?
Can you hear the sounds?
Can you feel the heat?
I was just to scared to let you own the deepest part of me
I left paradise and I did not even say good bye

Ooooooooooo
(when I close my eyes I see you)
Yeah
(In my dreams you will be near)
(Won't let you disappear)
No
But I'm hear on my own
(Hey)
When I close my eyes and listen
(Oh)
I am crying out for you
In the center of my heart
(My heart, my heart)
But I'm hear on my own

Oooooooooo
Baby
No
Ooooooo
Oooooo
Oooo
I think I'm over you,
But it's not true
It's just a lighter shade of blue

I think I'm over you,
But it's not true
It's just a
A lighter shade
A lighter shade of blue.

In DeniaL

2008-09-20T21:18:00.000+03:00

you have climbed an uphill road…
you have worn a heavy load…
you have cried through endless nights…
nearly given up the fight…
watched your dreams like falling stars…
the heartaches made you who you are…
now looking back you’ll see…
that I have always been there…
I have heard you cry and it breaks my heart…
for i love you so…
and I would never lie…
this is not the end…

there is still a hope…

Thoughts to Ponder

2008-09-10T18:59:00.000+03:00

I like most of the instructions here...we can apply it to our daily living and in dealing with the people around us..Thanks hugsy!

1- Take into account that great Love & great achievement involves great Risks.

2- When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3- Follow the three R's: Respect for self, Respect for others, Responsibility for all your actions.

4- Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5- Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6- Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

7- When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8- Spend sometimes alone everyday.

9- Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10- Remember that Silence is sometimes the best answer.

11- Live a good honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12- A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation of your life.

13- In disagreement with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the Past.

14- Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve Immortality.

15- Be gentle with the earth.

16- Once a year, go somewhere you've never been before.

17- Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your needs for each other.

18- Judge your Success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19- Approach Love & Cooking with reckless abandon.

20- Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

21- Don't just listen to What someone is saying. Listen to Why they are saying it.

22- Never interrupt when you are being flattered.

23- Don't trust anyone who doesn't close his/her eyes when you kiss.

24- Live with the knowledge that your character is your destiny.

25- Give people more than they expect and do it Cheerfully.

Inside My SouL

2008-08-23T21:06:00.000+03:00

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life.

You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities.

You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.

Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Right?!

2008-08-23T20:49:00.000+03:00

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Empathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You a Right Brained or Left Brained Woman in Love?

while wating for my plane.. (-;

2008-08-07T11:40:00.000+03:00

#What are you planning to do this weekend?
Attend my brother's wedding then SHOPPING,SHOPPING!! (=

#Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Nope. :D

#Are you easily confused?
HAHA. Yes. Fasciculus? Fasciculi? Funiculus? Funiculi? Which is which?:(

#Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
Hahaha. NO. Cheating is BAD. :|

#Have you ever broken a heart before?
I. DONT. KNOW.

#Who were you with last night?
Home alone :))

#Who's car were you last in?
Mine ;)

#Last thing you drank?
Florida Natural,Orange Juice! ;)

#Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Nope..Still alone! ;)

#Have you ever seen somebody get hit by a car?
HAHA. yeah, it hapnd in Ryiadh, our bus caused the accident,the young man was unconscious wen I ran checking on him.
But thank God he woke up few seconds later! :))

#Do you think the whole day is better if you smoke pot?
Huh? wat pot?!!! LOLS!

#Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
I thot of it once.long time ago,but am back to my senses now (=

#Have you broken a bone?
Nah. does cut wounds counts? i have lots of them! scar on my Lt. eyebrow tell a story! hehe (=

#What was the last reason you went to the Doctor for?
To do Fibo-optic scope down my thorat!!! ):

#Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes i did, I was soooooooo hurt @the time =( , & the person i slapped asked me to ='(

#When's the last time you told someone you loved them & meant it?
Early this morning :>

#Are you good at giving directions?
Haha. I think? :))

#If someone hit you, what would you do?
Hit that person back! >:)

#Been to Mexico?
I wish.

#Did you know that when women wear the color turquoise, men think they're easy?
OH REALLY?? NOW? :))

#Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings?
YES! althu some ppl dnt deserve that privilage of me telling them !! hehe..

Imagine a World Without.....YOU (in my own wards)

2008-07-18T12:00:00.001+03:00

Imagine life without emotion.
A baby born,
A new life begins.
What a miraculous day.
But not without emotion.

Imagine life without fear
Imagine life without anger

How?

Imagine life without hunger
Imagine life without poverty

Why?

Imagine life without any of these
then you imagine no life at all
Imagine how to help
Imagine why to help
Without life imagine nothing

Can you imagine life without hope?
Emptiness would conquer our every prayer
Leaving nothing but despair
And there's no way that we could cope.

Can you imagine life without love?
Emptiness would torment our very souls
Feeding the vastness of a black hole
And we'd be as lonely as a single dove.

Can you imagine life without GOD?
Emptiness would rule the whole world.
All the goodness would come unfurled
And the price would be total discord.

I'm couting the days..
Imagine Me..Without You!

Signed, Sealed, Delivered...

2008-06-10T02:33:00.000+03:00

Five Minutes Only!!!

2008-06-02T19:04:00.000+03:00

I've been very pissimist before but i thank God for the change, Changes has so many ways the most important is the inward w/c some people couldn't understand let's have an insight of this.

We tend to view life horizontally rather than vertically. We tend to be resistant rather than open to that which is new and unexpected. We need some course-correction techniques to break those habits! We can think of at least three that might work for us: Recognize and admit our negative mentality. So much of the cure is in the confession. Immediate correction begins with honest admission. Force a vertical focus until it begins to flow freely.We have never seen a habit just lie down, surrender, and die; we have to make a conscious effort if we hope to break longstanding habits. If we are negative today, chances are very good that when we wake up tomorrow morning we're still going to be negative. Force a vertical focus. Stay open to a new idea for at least five minutes. Don't try it for an entire day; we might panic. Just take on our day five minutes at a time.

When something new, something unexpected, confronts us, don't respond with an immediate "Nope! Never!" Wait five minutes. Hold off. Tolerate the possibility for five minutes. We will be surprised at the benefit of remaining open.

Spring time in the Air!

2008-05-07T17:33:00.000+03:00

We visited Tiny today

it was one of the best visits ever! Everything was so different and colorful! Unlike the other times we've been there, there was a different feeling in the air, we could almost touch the happiness and joy after the rainy dusty season.

Tiny's tree is adorned with RED blossoming flowers! The ambience was so perfect that even the chirping birds seem like singing a lovely melody coupled with flying butterflies giving a more blissful scene.

It was a real spring time experience.

For the first time in my life I felt this spot, this place was ours! There was no other person but us and mother nature. We were experimenting with my not-so-pro camera, and our final shots were quite impressive! I will post the pictures here in a while .

I can't really believe it's been 5 months already since Tiny left us to a better place, I can imagine our baby playing happily in her eternal spot, eating all her favorite food, her pain is gone forever.
And she is racing up and down the trees with her new friends! well done Nay for choosing this perfect spot, cuz I'm sure Tiny will be happy here for it's the only tree that is blossoming comparing to the neighboring trees .

This day was a BLAST! and will never be forgotten, a day of tranquility that is much needed. For both of us.

Thanks to ALLAH for this wonderful day!

Take a look at the brilliant shots...and no captions!

ForTy-SeVen-tH =)

2008-04-06T20:30:00.000+03:00

1. Does anyone know your passwrd?
Yup!

2. What was the last thing you ordered
at McDonalds?
Always order Veggies, but havnt been ther for ages..

3. Are you an emotional person?
hell yes!

4 . Do you like your name?
I like it along with my nicknames

5. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
yes i did!

6. What was the last thing you did?
doing this survey, updating my PC

7 . Who's next to you?
my gardian angels..everyone has 2 over ther shoulders

8. Who was the last person you ate
with?
mom

10 . What song are you listening to
right now?
L.O.V.E

11. missing someone?
my Tiny =(

12 . Last person hu called you?
Huggybear

13. Last song you sang?
Dadalhin..one month ago, cuz im in VOICE REST ryt now!

14. Last time you danced?
yesterday!!! on Eva's bday, it was fun fun fun!

15. Lost a friendship over something
stupid?
How about, I've been "stupid" over what I thot was "friendship"?

16. Last thing you ate?
Yogurt..

17. Been really depressed before?
even happy ppl feel it @some point, specially GURLS!

18. What time did you wake up today?
6:00 pm

19 . what are you wearing right now?
Green and pink floral PJ

20. Where are you right now?
my room..

21. What date and day is it?
it's a beautiful Monday night, 7th of 4, @12:15am...feels like celebrating my 47th bday!!!!!

22. Did you go anywhere today? where?
chilling in my own room

23. what did you do there?
Office work

24. Do you call your parents by their
first name?
sometimes..mostly dad when wer kidding

25. Are you an only child?
thank God no! or il be spoiler than I am right now!

26. Where do you go shopping?
plan to go center point

27. Do you like where you work?
can't wait moving to the new heart center! so exciting!

28. Do you like books?
Yes

29. Do you want to get married?
I want to have a baby..a real baby with nails and hair, hehe..does it mean i have to get marry?

30. to whom?
to my one and only...

NEVER SEE EACH OTHER

2008-04-06T14:41:00.000+03:00

Do you know the relationship between two eyes? They blink together, they move together, they cry together, they see things together, and they sleep together, BUT THEY NEVER SEE EACH OTHER. That's what friendship is! If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened.... would you come?.... If I had one day left to live my life... would you be part of my last day?.... If I needed a shoulder to cry on.... would you give me yours? I.AM.BLESSED! to have YOU in my life as a real friend not just someone that talks to you when they are bored..

Life is full of changes, and in this turmoil, only real friends never change..

Light and Sound...

2008-03-23T19:03:00.000+03:00

1)What's the brand of your watch?
= Betty Boop, Me to You, Guess, Swatch

2 ) What's the brand of your
rubbershoes/sneakers?
= Adidas, Lee Cooper, Milano, Reebok,
X18

3) What's the brand of your cell phone?
= Sony Erricson

4) What's the brand of your computer?
= HP desktop (mafi fayda!), Toshiba laptop (ours..fi fayda)

5) What's the brand of your bags?
= nine west, mango, milano,
harrod's, next, (so many,can't remember
anymore!)

6) What's the brand of your underwear?
= bench, avon, Marks and Spencer, La
senza, victoria secret, Bhs, Etam,
jennifer secret,H&M and (sometimes) Limited Too!

7) What's the brand of your flipflops?
= nine west, havaianas

8) What's the brand of your wallet?
= milano, mango

9) What's the brand of your perfumes?
= Jennifer lopez, Ralph Lauren, Escada (everafter!)

10) What's the brand of your shirts?
= zara, pull & bears, mango, next,
mexx, bench,jennifer, stradi varuis,
bershika, mis 20,miss sylverdge, polo,
H&M

11) What's the brand of your TV?
= LG

12) What's the brand of your shades?
= Guess (am so yabang of it!)

13) What's the brand of your shampoo
and conditioner?
= vaseline, pantine

14) What's your brand of cigarettes?
= forbidden!

15) What's the brand of your dental
floss, toothbrush?
= Colgate. aquafresh

16) What's the brand of your jeans?
= (many) mango, Zara, Lee Cooper,Identity,
promod, next, Stradivaruis, Pull & Bear

17) What's the brand of your laundry
soap?
= Ariel or Tied!(I dnt do laundry!)

18.) What's the brand of your lotion?
= Victoria's Secret, Jador (bango!)

19) What's the brand of your
toothpaste?
= colgate

20) What's the brand of your ballpen?
= pilot 0.5, Canada pen frm mudeera!

21) What's the brand of your camera?
= Sony ,Cybershot

===>Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.....

How much have you changed in 6 years?!

2008-03-08T14:06:00.000+03:00

-----------Six years ago-----------

1.) How old were you? - 20

2.) Where did you go to school? - KSA-Ryadh

3) Where did you work? - was studying

4.) Where did you live? - in a hostel

5.) Where did you hang out? - 2xweek only our days out with our embassy, usually shopping and calling family.

6.) Did you wear glasses? - Nope

7.) Who were your close friends? - Nuna & Doody

8.) How many tattoos did you have? - henna tattos on my left wrist as i recall

9.) How many piercings did you have? - 3....both ears!!!

10.) What car did you drive? - no driving, wer using the embassy's Van!

11.) Had you been to a real party? - many: birthdays, reunion, graduation,formal national party in our embassy..including our weekly gathering in the hostel we used to party with no reason, miss those days! =)

12.) Had You had your heart broken?
- yes

13.) Single/Taken/Married /Divorced?
- single

------------3 years ago----------

1.) How old were you?
- 23

2.) Where did you go to school?:
- working already

3.)Where did you work?
- hmc

4.) Where did you live?
- home sweet home =)

5.) Where did you hang out?
- used to hang out in yen's crib or
evening clinic

6.) Did you wear glasses?
- nope!

7.) Who were your close friend(s)?
- Nuna, maryomty & yen =)

8.) How many tattoos did you have?
- None so far! hehe

9.) How many piercings did you have?
- 3 pa rin

11) Had your heart broken?
- I broke one, and got broken too

12) Single/Taken/Married /Divorced:
- Taken

13) Any Kids?
- nope!

-----------Today------------

1.) How old are you?
- 26

2.) Where do you work?
- hmc

3.) Where do you live?
- same old house of ours

4.) Do you wear glasses?
- when am infront of the pc

5 .) Who are your close friends?
- yen, nuna, maryom

6.) Do you talk to your old friends?
- does it count miscall them every
morning before i go to work?

7) How many piercings do you have?
- 3 pa rin

8) How many tattoos?
- no plans at all

9.) What kind of car do you drive?
- I have 2cars!white hundai, red
tiger! thanx to my drivers

10.) have your heart been broken?
- Not anymore =) I'm HAPPY and
CONTENTED of what i have in my life =)

11) Single/Taken/Married /Divorced:
- happily married everafter--in my
dreams!

12.) Any Kids?
- just one--resting in peace =)

---> HABURDEY POW!

cynical

2008-02-26T18:13:00.000+03:00

"What's the world's greatest lie?" the boy asked, completely surprised. "It's this: that at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie."

- Paolo Coelho, The Alchemist

RED Haburdey without a cake or kiss!!!

2008-02-04T14:28:00.000+03:00

Let others know a little more about
yourself, re-post this as your name
followed by "ology."

♣MOUTHOLOGY

Q. What is your salad dressing of
choice?
A. Cessar Dressing only if it's fresh

Q. What is your favorite fast food
restaurant?
A. if I have to choose one...burger king!

Q. What is your fave sit down
restaurant?
A. TGIF

Q. On average, what size tip do you
leave at a restaurant?
A. 10?! normally yenoh takes care of that..hehe

Q. What food could you eat every day
for two weeks and not get sick of?
A. Carrots & lettuce!

Q. What are your pizza toppings of
choice?
A. pinaapple, olive & cheese

Q. What do you like to put on your
toast?
A. syrup & butter

♣TECHNOLOGY

Q. What is your wallpaper on your
computer?
A. Tiny @her best =)

Q. How many televisions do u have in your
house?
A. 7

♣BIOLOGY

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. Left-handed

Q. Have you ever had anything removed
from your body?
A. 2 "wisdom" teeth! :)

Q. What is the last heavy item you
lifted?
A. patient's leg! very big mama!

Q. Have you ever been knocked
unconscious?
A. once!

♣BULL[CRAP]OLOGY

Q. If it's possible, would you want
to know the day you're going to die?
A. I dunno...

Q. If you could change your name, what
would you change it to?
A. Sara =)

Q. what color looks good on you?
A. ALL COLORS! yabang!

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food
item by mistake?
A. pencils(for my drawings when i was little)..used to store it inside for winter! like hamsters!hehehe..

Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
A. I encountered 3life-threatening situations..one was a boy whom our bus crashed, another was a patient who had her glucose shock, 3rd one the day I met you ;P

Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. YES!

♣DAREOLOGY

Q.Would you allow one of your little
fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. would you?

Q. Would you never blog again for
$50,000?
A. nyaaa..not a chance!

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine
for $250,000?
A. if it'll do the readers any good! hehe sure i will!

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of
hot sauce for $1000?
A. small one maybe!

Q. Would you, without fear of
punishment, take a human life for
$1,000,000?
A. impossible!

♣DUMBOLOGY

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a
good movie?
A: havnt go there yet, Alvin is the best!

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in
your house?
A: carpets all over..

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: STAND tall!hehe

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: I've been there..

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you
own?
A: seven..do u want them color coded?

Q: Last time you got pulled over?
A. i dunt dirve luckily!

Q: What do you want to be when you
grow up?
A. professional photographer..

♣LASTOLOGY

Q: Last Friend you talked to?
A: nuna

Q: Last person who called u up?
A: yenoh

Q: Person you hugged?
A: mommy

♣FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number?
A.7

Q: Seasons?
A: I like cloudy days & blue skies, warm but not hot..cool but not cold..drops of rain but not showers...

♣CURRENTOLOGY

Q: Missing someone?
A: my pet =(

Q: Mood?
A. PMSing!!!

Q: Listening to?
A: none

Q: Watching?
A: Alvin in Chipmunks..3rd time now with yenoh!

Q: Worrying about?
A: next week..

♣RANDOMOLOGY

Q: First place you went this morning?
A: is this a trick question?

Q: What can you not wait to do?
A: wear my new scrubs ;)

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A. Lucky You

Q. Do you smile often?
A: even if am blue trust me!

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: only if you want me to! hehe..

Haburdey Red Tiger Car! your 4 years now!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2008-02-01T07:53:00.000+03:00

"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step."
~Chinese Saying

May this New Year be a step forward..in leading you to new roads of Happiness, Success and Prosperity!

Heart-warming letter signed by a Stranger

2008-01-19T11:09:00.000+03:00

This letter was sent to me last week from a person I dunno, as I forwarded some information about my profession to my other colleagues who circulated it to their own friends and that's how this lady found out about me..I think it was regarding my signature, -which I'm no longer using- my bad, I really forgot to remove it while forwarding that email to my colleagues at that time..

But her warm words touched my heart & soul deeply, did it ever happened to you that you recieve a letter or a gift from somone u dunno? I guess it's our human nature to be inspired by different kind of things..some by color of the sky, some by a touching story, some by few words, my signature..in particular, but this letter arrived right in time..I thought of sharing it with you to give you inspiration as well..

Here it is..

Friend dear,

My heart was broken with your words. Indeed the small letters of your message speak for it. How come a lady with great prowess and charm be shattered by words and hearsays? I don't know you my friend but no one has the right to judge or be judged. Let them speak as long as they could, let them make noise and hearsays. For the aftermath will not be yours, its how their character of being on the dark side makes them more evil than their words. You are unique and your uniqueness is incomparable. Everybody makes mistakes, words can cut like a knife. But to words you beget love and forgiveness and I believe you possess the most flowery words.

A beautiful ripe fruit is always being stoned. Be thankful for these people, you're now being reknowned. I would like you to enhance your inate goodness and spring like a flower. We are all professionals, no one has been far better than another. Therefore, we accept you and value your presence in the department.

Goodluck girl and I wish you'll never go crazy again online...spilling out your heartaches helps, but you don't know who'll catch it fine.=)

-Stranger

Take my hand across the slippery ice, I promise we'll make it..

2008-01-04T16:05:00.000+03:00

In this world things come and go

And we can't know what the future may holds

Nothing really stays the same

And when we least expect it our lives are changed..

If something ever changes

And we happen to lose touch

Please know that I'll always think of you

And miss you very much..

So before the world changes

I just wanted to say

I'm thankful that we're friends

Yesterday and today..

With time and memories on our side

I hope we never part

But if we do, remember you

Are forever in my HEART.

Sweet Dreams Little One..

2007-12-19T16:52:00.000+03:00

She nestled under her nay's chin on her last night and that morning..we felt it was going to be the end..she must have felt it too..she just wanted to rest in peace..
She drifted away yesterday around 3pm with me & nay close by to comfort her, she fought right until the end, but eventually, her tiny body could not hold her spirit any longer.

I sit and watch for hours,
As you clumsily scamper around,
Bashing, Bumping, Crashing, Jumping,
A lovable fur ball; white and brown,
The echo of happiness and contentment,
Your whiskers whisper to me;
A world of perfect bliss
Where I feel completely free.
I teach you to runabout your ball
You master it and race,
Me down as we play,
Your affection I embrace.
An appetite for all things nice,
Your rainbow eyes settle upon,
The food which I am holding,
And soon out of it, you con.
Now I sit and watch you sleeping,
Peacefully you drift away.
One final goodnight,
To a sweet Little One like no other.

Gone but not forgotten..You will always be Missed..and always Loved..

~ R.I.P Tinybear ~
(May 2 - December 18, 2007)

A Letter to Tiny Ko..

2007-12-18T18:04:00.000+03:00

My Little One..My cute furry ball..

Today, you were supposed to complete with us 33 weeks..

In your short life with us, 8 months, You brought joy to us and to everyone around you, you know we looked after you well. We gave you the best of all..your treats & foods, your toys, ur new wheel from nay that you didn't have the chance to wear it & tear it just like ur old one..ur purple seesaw, that was ur favorite, ur tiny hammy house that was made only for you..

Did you know that nay was going to make a new toy for you during this break? nice and colorful big puzzle so that you can play around freely?

But you got sick and refused to eat..and we took you to the best vet in the country who did everything she can to save ur tiny life..you survived the 2 surgeries..you were a brave one..your wounds were healing perfectly..you tolerated the daily injections and checkups, but you still wont eat..ur chubby body became skinny & you didn't have the strength to play or move around anymore..seeing you like this was breaking my heart and nay's..you refused to eat..food was soo painful for you..living was soo painful for you..you wanted us to let you go..and that's what we did..

One of the hardest decisions that we took in our lives..

was putting you to sleep..

One of the greatest gifts we can give you is to know when the time has come that it does not have a life that it wants to keep living. We felt ur needs somehow of our support to leave us.. and simply we were holding you and letting you know it is OK to go..I know it was enough to let you slip away feeling our love around you.

If you cannot feed urself and don't want to move then ur body was telling u that the time has come. even if you were too young to die.. we must decide and in our heart we knew that this was the right decision..

As we took you to the vet, holding you in my hand, comfy and warm with ur little blanket. As you go when the time comes. you know we helped you have peace when you needed it most.

In my arms, and with nay close by to comfort you..We saw you resisting for life until the end..you gasped your last breath around 3pm.

We took your fragile body home with us..we cleaned you with our tears and prepared your comfy bed to rest in peace, with your favorite colors & bedding..as we kissed you goodbye, we gently put your helpless body inside your tiny house, your favorite hideout..with a note from mommy & nay..that we will see you again someday..

Next was looking for you perfect spot..

In you short life with us..we've always wanted to take you to the park to play with the grass..but I was so protective of you that I was afraid sun will hurt ur rainbow eyes..but now ur gone..and nothing can harm you anymore, I promise..

We choosed your eternal spot..nice and green, between two big trees, sun is up..weather is fine, birds are singing your melody..as nay was digging with her hands and soul..

I was humming ur last lullaby before you sleep..

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true..

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

Now my Little One, you left us to be in a better place, the Rainbow Bridge, a beautiful place for all animals who leaves our nasty world, you are safe and warm now, my baby..I know ur playing joyfully in the grass, climbing up the trees, eating your favorite food, making friends with your new playmates..

Rest in Peace, Little One...Mommy & Nay will always LOVE you..

tiny is sick :(

2007-12-10T17:12:00.000+03:00

Please pray for my baby tiny..my heart is really breaking, I never thought things will go down hill this way.. it seems serious.. I'm taking the day off tomorrow..

I dunno what are her chances.. :( :( :(

My Birthday Wishlist..and for the Holidays ;)

2007-12-02T18:59:00.000+03:00

Another year gone soon!

Same with last year, my birthday is struck between two important events, my friend's baby's bday and xmas eve! and I will definitely be running from here to there...making sure I wont miss the occasions, and propably crying over the slightest silly reasons! hehehe..

As for my wishlist, this is actually my first! I prolly had said for 25 years that I don't know what I want for my birthday. But this year I think I have couple of things that I really wish to get my hands on!

*Drum rolls*

Wishlist (I wish and I wish and I wish...)

1. Betty Boop Watch Red/Silver Heart Charm.

2. 300 QR shopping voucher from cityplaza.
(Dunno why it takes them real looooong time to send it to us?)

3. Shopping Spree.
(shop till I drop!)

4. New wheel for tiny.
(I know I know u fixed it already..but u know me right?)

5. Anything with a personal touch. Not all gifts can be purchased.
(I'll leave that to my good friend's imagination..could be a fone call from a long-distance friend will always do)

6. Mom's Health in all aspect...( I PRAY HARD FOR THAT, AMEN!).

7. FUN picnic with all my friends loved ones.

8. World PEACE. (Peace within for those unfortunate insecure souls).

9. Happiness for all mankind. (everyone deserve to be happy).

10. My 1st Inaanak to stay with us. (I'm really praying hard for that).

11. For me to learn how to forgive and forget. (to be a better person).

Maybe.....

10. Flowers (No pink roses please...Tulips, Daisies & Sunflowers are always welcome! hehe)

11. Betty Boop Tote Bag Purse Heart Crown Jeweled.(or any Betty Boop bag will do ;))

12. Chocolates!!!

13. Betty Boop Cell Phone Charm Fits Antenna (Add on for my charm!)

Dreamlist (Will anyone fulfill my dreams? *Giggles*)
1. Red Mini Cooper Car (I can't resist the fun of playing with it!hehe)

2. A pair of diamond earrings.
(I have a diamond ring, this would be a perfect match!)

3. A long nice vacation.
(This is really a dream... the longest vacation I had was 2 weeks, but I'm thankful for our upcoming Masqat vacation ;))

Voidlist - Things to avoid
1. ~~pink roses~~ (As mentioned)

2. ~~Soft toys.~~

3. ~~Pinkie stuffs...~~ (I'm NOT a pink-cutesy-thing kinda person)

===> this list is subject to editing ;)

Wahaha.... Came up to be a huge list... Ok... I'm greedy! But it's my WISH LIST!

None of that Sissy Crap !

2007-12-02T18:00:00.000+03:00

Are you tired of those sissy "friendship" poems that always sound good, But never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship. You will see no cutesy little smiley faces on this card-Just the stone cold truth of our great friendship.

1. When you are sad -- I will help you plot revenge against The sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile -- I will know you are plotting something that I must be involved in.

4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much Worse it could be until you quit whining.

6. When you are confused -- I will use little words.

7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

9. This is my oath.... I pledge it to the end. "Why?" you may ask; "because you are my friend".

****Thanx Joko Late!

No Need to Judge!

2007-12-01T11:47:00.000+03:00

T he way I see it, no one is perfect, and everyone is different!! Most people are afraid of whats different. They have their comfort zone and they don't dare venture out of it.

I, however, and very interested in what is different. Perhaps just for the fact by getting to know people's differences more, you get to know people as a whole better.

Also, think of it this way. If you embrace other peoples differences you will not only be able to venture to many different places but you will also have a bigger circle of friends.

~ From My Experience..

EASY on my "back"..please!

2007-11-26T14:45:00.000+03:00

Want me to write ? ok you might don't want but I want to, I just don't know what to write about , I wanted to tell ya my impression about a training course that I'm attending ...one of the very useful post graduate courses for my profession, I thought it's gonna be fun , it is not that bad but the atmosphere was kinda dead and the lecturer was trying to spice it up !!! I was kinda lost at the start, although I'm attentive by nature ... but I don't know what's going on with me.

Could be due to the stressful night I spent, or the rushy morning that I ended with me showing up last minute on the registeration table, or cud be due to the long 11 hours of the course sitting still in one place -and that's against my nature!- although I was trying to catch up before the end of the day..

There is something I do hate when some people ACT smart in a meeting or a seminar in other words pretend to be smart , it is very annoying to ask dumb questions, or even pretend to be extremely over- polite , being polite is really good behaviour but believe me not like that person! I hope things get better and more digestible .

Another type of people is less annoying actaully it doesn't bother me at all , when some person keep comparing a material he learned with the actual material that he is learning now, it is funny cuz the new piece of information is attached with the previous one ....The unability to detach ...yeah that's what I would call it !!!

All these unnecessary comments and questions-from the boys- makes us-the girls- suffer, cuz it only means spending more time from the instructor to answer these questions which at the end makes us stay extra time pass the 11 hours!!!

My back is screaming of pain! not juz bcuz of the long sitting hours, but also part of this course is practical..and I was chosen as the "victim" twice to do some manual techniques on my back!cuz they think my back is like what you see in text book, yeah right..they just wanted to use me! and I'm so stubborn, I insist on blogging my experience before I turn in although I'm drained..

Anyways, it 's good to learn something new , probably it's gonna be helpful for my patients & profession, right now my mind needs me to do this (the blogging thing not the course!), it's like discharging all complex emotions and energy I carry since last night till now..and it's kinda make me feel better..

Right now..my baby is safe and in good hands, I can rest my back and eyes..peacefully!

♥ T!nY BeAr→ BubbLe$

2007-11-24T07:35:00.000+03:00

♥ T!nY BeAr BubbLe$..→ DiffereNt FaCes @ DiffereNt aGe ♥

Hot Chocolate!

2007-11-13T17:46:00.000+03:00

When it’s cold outside, it’s always nice to come inside and wrap your hands around a nice warm cup of hot cocoa. Grocery store shelves are packed with powered hot chocolate and hot cocoa mixes, but nothing beats an old fashioned homemade cup of the real stuff.

Even if you prefer instant hot cocoa for those days when you’re busy, you can easily make the instant hot cocoa mixture yourself.

The following recipes will show you how to make real hot chocolate and real hot cocoa from scratch. You will also find a recipe for making your own instant hot cocoa mixture. If you love hot mocha or spiced hot chocolate, you will find those instructions at the end.

How to Make Real Hot Chocolate

Ingredients:

2 squares unsweetened or semisweet chocolate
1/3 cup sugar
4 cups milk
Break or chop the two squares of unsweetened or semisweet chocolate into smaller pieces.

In a saucepan, add: 2 chopped squares unsweetened or semisweet chocolate, 1/3 cup sugar and 2 cups milk. Cook over medium heat, stirring continuously. Once the mixture comes to a boil, add the remaining 2 cups milk and heat all the way through. Do not allow the hot chocolate to come to another boil.

Remove from heat and serve immediately.

You may substitute 1/3 cup semisweet morsels for the 2 squares unsweetened or semisweet chocolate.

How to Make Real Hot Cocoa

Ingredients:

1/4 cup cocoa powder
1/3 cup sugar
4 cups milk
In a saucepan, add: 1/4 cup cocoa powder, 1/3 sugar and 4 cups milk. Cook over medium heat, stirring continuously. Heat all the way through without allowing the mixture to come to a boil. When steam begins to build and a few bubbles escape along the sides of the saucepan, the cocoa is done.

Remove from heat and serve immediately.

How to Make Your Own Instant Cocoa Mix

Ingredients:

6 cups nonfat dry milk powder
2 1/2 cups powdered sugar
1 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
1 cup powdered nondairy creamer
In a large mixing bowl, combine all ingredients: 6 cups nonfat dry milk powder, 2 1/2 cups powdered sugar, 1 cup unsweetened cocoa powder and 1 cup powdered nond airy creamer. Mix well.

By Judith Blakley Published Nov 30, 2006

Desiderata..

2007-11-11T14:25:00.000+03:00

Go placidly amid the noise and the
haste,
and remember what peace there may be
in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly,
and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be
greater and lesser persons than
yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as
your plans.
Keep interested in your own career
however humble;
it is a real possession in the
changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business
affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you
to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and
disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of
youth.
Nurture strength of spirit
to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark
imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and
loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as
it should.
Therefore , be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and
aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham,
drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy

God Bless the Broken Roads...

2007-11-04T13:12:00.000+03:00

1st Road: When ufall in love for the first time in ur life u think he/she is the ONE, u really love them deeply from the heart, and u start to dream of spending the rest of ur life with them, plan things together slowly..u are filled with this strong new emotion that takes over u, afraid at the same time of losing them, u see no one but them and this new feelings...until one day, circumstances change and somehow..u partways from ur loved one. Sadly all ur dreams smash hard with reality..but still with ur hurt u try to fight back against time. Ur still holding on for sometime, but not forever. Cuz nature has to do its job after all..and it's only a matter of time and distance to realize u have to let them go..and accept the fact that u were never meant to be for each other.

2nd Road: Now ur broken and defeated, and most importantly..LONELY, u long for someone to help u through ur days and nights, u miss the feelings that u felt before, u miss belonging to someone, giving and sharing..so u attract someone to help u through this phase of ur life, and then...BANG! u think he/she is the ONE! and u do the biggest mistake of falling for them. With this person, watch your heart and don't fall in love easily. Most likely you'll get hurt. I call this person the Transition Person. Usually this person dosn't remain in our lives, or live up to fantasies we may have created about them, but they do serve a purpose in help us move on and into new space. That person is someone you have attracted to help u move on. Now comes the sticky part: often u think u have attracted that person as your life long soul mate. Wrong! Usually that's not the case. That person lives out whatever karma they have to help u move on, then moves out of ur life. Your soul is confused. But you have to understand their role in your life and accept it, allowing time for ur soul to heal from the other issues.

3rd Road: Ur still hurt, confused and scared. Ur afraid to open ur heart and soul one more time, u don't trust urself or others, ur tryign ur best to move on, but in need to a frined's hand, a kind word, u don't need a lover at this stage..u need a friend. It took u days and weeks and to heal ur wounds, with an understanding soul that looks over u, shared with u all ur frustrations and breakdowns. All ur UPS and DOWNS. Someone was and is there for u and with u during it all, without planning and without knowing how much more time u need to realize that the ONE was always there with u and beside u but u were blind to see this truth! Things didn't have to be official and traditional to go through the phases of dating, meeting the parents and getting married. Sometimes it just doesn't have to work this way and it still suit u, it works for u and it never changed the fact that ur comfortable with it, ur best friend, ur life partner and ur soulmate. U find them all in one: The Only ONE for you! After u realized this fact, u need to trust again, u want to give and feel loved again..even more better, ur grown up now, u know what u need in life and what u want, u understands ur needs, u are a wiser and more experience version of u, u are committed to this relationship for life, u give unconditionally and faithfully, u may face rough rocky roads along the way. But u manage to batch things together before u go to sleep.

Now, what will happen to you when u lose the Only ONE for you? Ur life will stop? The sun will stop on shining? The earth will quit spinning around? You wonder about the fantasy about eternal love and romance and whether it will ever find you. You may feel alone and depressed. This is better than giving your personal power away. noh? You must now seek your personal power and continue the journey that was given to you when you first attracted the Only ONE for u. How have you grown from the experience? Are you upset because you did not get what you want or expected? How long did you really feel the Only ONE for u could maintain this experience while dealing with their own issues? Can you get past the anger? Doesn't everybody after a period of time? After a bad relationship ends you must find out who you have become and what you have learned. You are not the same person you were when you first started the initial relationship. You have grown in both relationships and reality now takes on a new frequency for you.

Happy Birthday!

Being alone is a time of growth. You do not have to feel lonely. This is your journey ... use it wisely.

God Bless the Broken Roads...

2007-11-04T12:14:00.000+03:00

You must now seek your personal power and continue the journey that was given to you when you first attracted the Only ONE for u. How have you grown from the experience? Are you upset because you did not get what you want or expected? How long did you really feel the Only ONE for u could maintain this experience while dealing with their own issues? Can you get past the anger? Doesn't everybody after a period of time? After a bad relationship ends you must find out who you have become and what you have learned. You are not the same person you were when you first started the initial relationship. You have grown in both relationships and reality now takes on a new frequency for you.

Happy Birthday!

Being alone is a time of growth. You do not have to feel lonely. This is your journey ... use it wisely.

No Problem!

2007-10-06T17:22:00.000+03:00

Don't worry if you have problems! Which is easy to say until you are in the midst of a really big one, I know. But the only people I am aware of who don't have troubles are gathered in little neighborhoods. Most communities have at least one.

We call them cemeteries.

If you're breathing, you have difficulties. It's the way of life. And believe it or not, most of your problems may actually be good for you! Let me explain.

Maybe you have seen the Great Barrier Reef, stretching some 1,800 miles from New Guinea to Australia. Tour guides regularly take visitors to view the reef. On one tour, the guide was asked an interesting question: "I notice that the lagoon side of the reef looks pale and lifeless, while the ocean side is vibrant and colorful, a traveler observed. Why is this?"

The guide gave an interesting answer: "The coral around the lagoon side is in still water, with no challenge for its survival. It dies early. The coral on the ocean side is constantly being tested by wind, waves, and storms - surges of power. It has to fight for survival every day of its life. As it is challenged and tested it changes and adapts. It grows healthy. It grows strong. And it reproduces."

Then he added this telling note that's the way it is with every living organism. That's how it is with people. Challenged and tested, we come alive! Like coral pounded by the sea, we grow. Physical demands can cause us to grow stronger. Mental and emotional stress can produce tough-mindedness and resiliency. Spiritual testing can produce strength of character and faithfulness.

So, you have problems - no problem! Just tell yourself, there I grow again!

~ All that is precious in life is a secret. Love is a secret. Life is a
secret. The world is a secret. Your feelings, emotions are a secret. I'm the biggest secret.

And you're still desperate, not to mention completely alone..

2007-10-04T12:34:00.000+03:00

1.Your name plus "ness"?
-- BuBwitness. OKAY? =))

2. Two feelings at the moment?
-- EXCITED! More Excited!!!

3. What are you listening to right now?
-- NONE @ the moment

4. Done anything you regret so far this week?
-- YES. A LOT! :|

5. Describe where you are right now?
-- Silent. Peacefuuuul @my tube. :>

6. The highlight of your week?
-- World Heart Day events, i guess.

7. What are you craving to have right now?
-- NY cheese cake..after sherwin's email :|

8. Who were the last people you ate with?
-- Gramma & Mom & Tiny :>

9. What are you scared of?
-- Not able to walk again :|

10. Last movie you watched?
-- My Sassy Girl ..recommended by Jenniper :)

11. Last songs you sang out loud?
-- Totally Eclipse of the Heart..really LOUD =0

12. Are you thinking of someone right now?
-- Yes.

14. Who is the last person you talked to?
-- Sarah Kulit & Yus :>

15. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
-- my New Norton AntiVirus, my old version Expired =(

16. Have you changed much this year?
-- Yes. Definitely. in & Out :)

19. Hug or kiss?
-- Hugs First..then a Kiss ;))

23. Who were the last person to text message you?
-- Yen..waiting for boarding in Frankfurt ;))

24. Where was the last place you went to besides where you are?
-- Kitchen..I helped my sister cooking :>

26. Do you speak any other language other than english?
-- Taglish :)) I sing in French..abit of Irani & Japanese

Di ja voh? ;)

27. Last thing you watched on TV?
-- Prison Break3 episode 3

28. Do you dress for style or comfort?
-- Both! :D

29. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
-- Franciss Lee-Cadorna! hehehe..=D

30. Ever had a drunken night in mexico?
-- Never been there & I never drink :)

31. Whats the craziest thing you've done?
-- HAHA. GO FIGURE. =))

32. Favorite color(s)?
-- BLUE, RED, ORANGE..turquoise :)

33. What's your favorite cereal character?
-- Muselix.

34. What is your favorite Michael Jackson song?
-- Heal the World :>

35. Who do you love?
--I Love everyone :]

36. Any plans right now?
-- HMMMMM. I don't think so. I'm toooooo busy.

37. What are your plans for tonight?
-- UPLOAD.PRAYING.DINNER.PHONE.SLEEP. =))

38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow?
-- meeting in yen's crib :))

39. Last time you smiled?
-- Dismissal :>

40. Who do you wanna be with right now?
-- Do you really wanna know?

Keepin' myself busy :)

2007-10-02T06:44:00.000+03:00

BLUE IS LOVE

1. Do you love someone? Yes, Of course. :)
2. Do you believe in love at first sight?No such thing. :P
3. Do you believe in love? Yes dear :>

RED IS ANGER

1. Are you currently mad at someone? Yes.YES. YESSSSSSS! :| =))
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper? My eldest sister :))
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? Hmmm. I did.
4. Is anyone mad at you? I think so. :) =))
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell? Stare..then yell!. Haha.:D

YELLOW IS SELF DISCOVERY

1. Name: mimi,manal,mahal,bubwit,liit;
2. Birthday: 15th of December 1981
3. What is your main goal in life? Haha. To change the world =))
4. Do you want to have children? Yes. :)
5. When do you want to die? I don't have any idea. =))

ORANGE IS EXCITEMENT

1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? YES! 3 times! 2. What event is coming up that you're most excited? "yen's arrival" to get my pasalobong :))
3. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought? SHOPPPPPPPING, of course. :>
4. If you could have anything right now what would it be? Anything? HMMMM. Go figure. :>

GREEN IS..

Are you against:
1. Gay marriage? YEAH. :| =))
2. Lower the drinking age? Nooo. :))
3. Capital Punishment? It depends.
4. Abortion? Yes.

PURPLE IS Q&A

Q: how many beds did you lay/sit in today?
A: One.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: Orange.

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
A: TALK.

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A: HMMM. 400.

Q: Look to your left. what do you see?
A: My Closet & Tiny's crib :>

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: Multip. Fster. HamsterForum.

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: NOPE.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: My Neck.

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: YEAHP.

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: Last Night :| :(

PINK IS LAST

1. Movie watched in cinema? Ocean 13! :>
2. Song you listened to? Out of Reach- Gabrielle.
3. Person you talked on the phone with? Mudeera.
4. What are you doing tonight? Go out :>
5. What are you going to eat? I'm fasting :>

BROWN IS FOR TOMORROW

1. Is: WEDNESDAY! :>
2. Are you looking forward to it? YES. I'm totally excited! :> =))
3. Are you going to laugh? Yes, of course. :>

"Don't Mess With Me!"

2007-09-03T22:29:00.000+03:00

A wealthy old lady decides to go on a photo safari in Africa, taking her faithful, elderly poodle named Cuddles, along for the company. One day the old poodle starts chasing butterflies and before long, Cuddles discovers that he's lost.
Wandering about, he notices a leopard heading rapidly in his direction with the intention of having lunch.The old poodle thinks, "Oh, oh! I'm in deep doo-doo now!" Noticing some bones on the ground close by, he immediately settles down to chew on the bones with his back to the approaching cat.
Just as the leopard is about to leap the old poodle exclaims loudly, "Boy, that was one delicious leopard! I wonder if there are any more around here?" Hearing this, the young leopard halts his attack in mid-strike, a look of terror comes over him and he slinks away into the trees.
"Whew!", says the leopard, "That was close! That old poodle nearly had me!" Meanwhile, a monkey who had been watching the whole scene from a nearby tree, figures he can put this knowledge to good use and trade it for protection from the leopard. So off he goes, but the old poodle sees him heading after the leopard with great speed, and figures that something must be up.
The monkey soon catches up with the leopard, spills the beans and strikes a deal for himself with the leopard.
The young leopard is furious at being made a fool of and says, "Here, monkey, hop on my back and see what's going to happen to that conniving canine!Now, the old poodle sees the leopard coming with the monkey on his back and thinks, "What am I going to do now?", but instead of running, the dog sits down with his back to his attackers, pretending he hasn't seen them yet, and just when they get close enough to hear, the old poodle says... "Where's that damn monkey? I sent him off an hour ago to bring me another leopard!

Moral of this story.... Don't mess with old farts...age and skill will always overcome youth and treachery! Bullshit and brilliance only come with age and experience.If you don't send this to five "old" friends right away there will be five fewer people laughing in the world.I am in no way insinuating that any of you are old, some are just more youthfully challenged.

Self Survey

2007-08-03T17:36:00.000+03:00

Do you like coffee? I'm not a big fan of coffee, I preferehot choclate or green tea:)
When was the last time you went to aparty? Can't remember rilly!I wud say 7 mosago..Ralfing b'day party :)
Do you like to read news papers? used to, but no time now!
Do preps annoy you? Nope
How much do you weigh? 48 Kg :)
Whos your closest friend? Yen
Are you taken? I know I'm not available :)
Whats something that pisses you off? Hypocrite & liers
Do you still like your ex? I don't have an eX!
Are you random? alot
Do you listen to rap? sometimes
What color eyes do you have? smocky black!
Is cheerleading a sport? my sister is, i think it's a type of sport
What time did you wake up? 9 am (weekend now!)
Wheres your mom? in the living room :)
Do you have a dog? Nope! but i have a hamster & soon-to-be a kitten :)
Whats your favorite food? Mexican, Italian & Chinese
Are you listening to music? specially when I'm on the road
What year are you? 80's revolution :)
Whats the worst smell in the world? death
What are you wearing? pinky pejamas :)
What are you doing? watching Music & Lyrics, readingPancit recipe :)
Whats your favorite drink? sheila's home-made icetea, water
When was the last time you went on avacation? last July, with mom & dad to London..
Are you in love? y do u ask :)
How long have you and your bf/gf beentogether? Not as u consider :)
How old do you want to be when you getmarried? 4 years ago!!!hehehe..

Discharge Against Medical Advise!

2007-07-26T21:45:00.000+03:00

Engaging in a relationship is liketaking care of a seriously ill patient
You have to gather first all the neededequipment such as your heart, mind &time.
Then when problems come, apply the bestmedication with rationale,Maintaining the right level of diastolic & systolic pressure to avoidbreak down
Be conscious towards your partners awareness
Don’t let her temperature reach the highest peak
For her nose may bleed for the fever she got while waiting for you for several hours
Bed bath can't always relieve the feelingof discomfort specially when there's no hope at all
Thermometer can't be accurate to determine one's real feeling even mentally or emotionally
No CPR's can revive the dying heart
No I.V. fluids can quench the thirsty soul
Otoscope is no use to determine if she understands what she hears
Opthalmoscope can detect the failure of your eyes, but can't differentiate reality from fantasy.
You can't splint a Broken heart
No betadine can clean & disinfect the wound brought of failure
No gauze can cover the scar
Nor cotton balls to dry the tears of sorrow
There is no casting of time
Oral care can't wash out any profane words that has been said when pain is over.
No ascorbic acid can supply the needs to be loved
No amount of body positioning can provide comfort to one w/ a broken heart.
But the Tender Loving Care that goes w/every positioning that gives relaxation & satisfaction.
It is not always the right medicine to the right person at the right time, neither the right dosage of it, But the right approach to your love that heals.
It is not the nurse who cures the ill heart , But it's the person's willingness to see the world that cures all pains.

Childhood Survey

2007-07-26T18:58:00.000+03:00

1. Are you a child of the 70s, 80s, or
90s?
*. 80's

2. Where were you born?
*. Doha/Qatar

3. What city did you grow up in?
*. Doha/Women's Hospital

4. Did you enjoy your childhood?
*. As much & as many I can enjoy..& still wants more

5. When you were a kid, what did you
want to be when you grew up?
*. Hostess in TV show... hehehe...

6. What do you want to be now?
*. What i have become...

7. Were you a fun little kid?
*. Alot!used to sing & dance for my family

8. What was your first best friend's
name?
*. Hanan: playmates & best friend

9. Is he/she still your friend?
*. still in touch but not close

10. Can you name all the schools you
ever attended?
*. Alot Alot Alot!!3 in elementary,2 in preparatory,2 in secondary!!can't name it!hehehe...

11. Were you closer to your mom or dad
as a kid?
*. my DAD, I'm Daddy's lil' gurl

12. What was the first record, tape or
CD you remember buying?
*. Spicegirls-it was a tape

13. How old is a good age to have kids?
*. dunno..???

14. Are you scared of anything?
*. yep...being sick!

15. What was your favorite class in
elementary school?
*. Science

16. Did you buy school lunch or bring
your own?
*. I used to buy it from school's cafateria

17. Broken any bones or had any freaky
accidents as a kid?
*. o ya.. I've had 5 scars on my left eyebrow ,all in five different occasions, so naughty

18. Were you a mean kid?
*. only when I'm bullyed or see a kid being bullyed

19. Favorite board game of all time?
*. dominoes

20. Did you play house or pretend to
be a super hero?
*. super hero ..yes

21. Seriously, are you still just a
kid at heart?
*. I think so

7.7.7

2007-07-07T18:21:00.000+03:00

whew!
What Can I say?

only that you are the BEST thing that have ever happened in my Life..
THANK YOU for all the ways you blessed my Life!

I will be there for you all the time...

mwuaaHugs!

There is Nothing

2007-06-23T21:23:00.000+03:00

There is nothing I can give you which you do not have, but there is much that while I cannot give it, you can take.
No Heaven can come to us unless our hearts find rest in it today. Take Heaven.
No Peace lies in our future which is not hidden in this present instant. Take Peace.
The gloom of the world is but a shadow, behind it, yet within reach is joy, there is radiance and glory in the darkness could we but see and to see we have only to look. I beseech you to look.
Life is so generous a giver, but we, judging its gifts by their covering cast them away as ugly or heavy or hard. Remove the covering and you will find beneath a living splendor woven of love, by wisdom with power.
Welcome it, grasp it, and you touch the angel’s hand that brings it to you. Everything we call a trial, a sorrow or a duty, the angel’s hand is there, the gift is there and the wonder of an over-shadowing presence.
Our joys too be not content with them as joys. They too conceal diviner gifts.
And so at this time I greet you, not quite as the world sends greetings, but with profound esteem and the prayer that for you, now and forever, the day breaks, the shadows flee away.

by Fra Giovanni - 1513

LOVING AN IMPERFECT PERSON

2007-05-12T13:44:00.000+03:00

They have been married for two years. He
loves literature and often posts his
work on the net, but nobody ever reads
them. He is also into photography and he
handles their wedding photos. He loves
her very much. Likewise with her. She
has a quick temper and always bullies
him. He is a gentleman and always gives
in to her.

Today, she's being willful again.

Her: "Why can't you be the photographer
for my friend's wedding? She promised
she'd pay."

Him: "I don't have time that day."

Her: "Humph!"

Him: "Huh?"

Her: "Don't have time? Write less of
those novels, and you will have all the
time you need."

Him: "I... someone will definitely
recognize my work some day."

Her: "Humph! I don't care, you'll have
to do it for her!"

Him: "No."

Her: "Just this once?"

Him: "No."

Negotiation' s broken. So, she gave the
final warning: "Give me a Yes within
three days, or else..."

First day, she "withheld" the kitchen,
bathroom, computer, refrigerator,
television, hi-fi... Except the double
bed, to show her "benevolence" .

Of course, she has to sleep on it too.
He didn't mind, as he still has some
cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and
removed everything from his pockets and
warned, "Seek any external help, and you
bear the consequences. "

He's nervous now. That night, on the
bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that
she'll end this state. She doesn't give
a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever
he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, night. On the bed. He's lying
on the bed, looking to one side. She's
lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him: "We need to talk."

Her: "Unless it's about the wedding,
forget it."

Him: "It's something very important."

She remains silent.

Him:"Let's get a divorce."

She did not believe her ears.

Him: "I got to know a girl."

She's totally angry, and wanted to hit
him. But she held it down, wanting to
let him finish. But her eyes already
felt wet.

He took a photo out from his chest.
Probably from his undershirt pocket,
that's the only place she didn't go
through yesterday. How careless.

Him: "She's a nice girl."

Her tears fell.

Him: "She has a good personality too."

She's heartbroken because he puts a
photo of some other girl close to his heart.

Him: "She says that she'll support me
fully in my pursue for literature after
we got married."

She's very jealous because she said the
same thing in the past.

Him: "She loves me truly."

She wishes to sit up and scream at him
"Don't I?"

Him: "So, I think she won't force me to
do something that I don't want to do."

She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.

Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I
took for her?"

Her: "...!"

He brings the photo before her eyes.
She's in a total rage, hits his hand
away and leaves a burning slap on his face.

He sighs. She cries.

He puts the photo back to his pocket.
She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps. She
turns on the light, and sits up. He's
asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets
treating him the way she treated him.

She cried again, and thought about a lot
of things. She wants to wake him up. She
wants to have a intimate talk with him.
She doesn't want to push him anymore.
She stares at his chest. She wants to
see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to
cry and she wanted to laugh.
It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he
took for her. She bends down, and kissed
him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be
asleep.

~author unknown~

~~~~~~~~~~~~
"You learn to love, not by finding a
perfect person, but by learning to see
an imperfect person perfectly."

No big deaL?!!!

2007-04-27T18:51:00.000+03:00

" it's no big deal. break her heart. let her down. make her cry. you ‘love’ her right? everything is fine. hold her hand. lead her on. it's no big deal. she'll come to you.."

And just let her cry If the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing If it eases all her pain
Let her go Let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be
Let her be
This morning I woke up alone
Found a note standing by the phone
Saying baby, maybe I'll be back someday
I wanted to look for you
You walked in I didn't know just what I should do
So I sat back down and had a beer and felt sorry for myself
Saying let her cry If the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing If it eases all her pain
Let her go
Let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be
Let her be
Oh... Last night I tried to leave
Cried so much I could not believe
Won't you hold my hand?

" it's no big deal. break her heart. let her down. make her cry. you ‘love’ her right? everything is fine. hold her hand. lead her on. it's no big deal. she'll come to you.."

????????????????

2007-04-20T15:57:00.000+03:00

"Well-intentioned" people; nearly every couple knows at least one. In fact, we could all probably rattle off a few names in a matter of minutes. They are the ones that are constantly advising you about your partner's habits or lifestyle in the most well-meaning of tones; the ones who can't help but comment on some misfortune you've had or who mysteriously appear when they need something from you. And, they are the ones who are slowly, and not so silently, zapping the life and happiness from your relationship. The worst part is that you may not even realize it is happening!
The good news is there is a way to limit their effect on you and your relationship. It just takes a few conscious changes and an agreement as a couple to put those changes into effect.The first step is to realize there is a problem. So, to start you'll need to understand how they are harmful to your relationship. Before taking any action, decide what it is about that person that is a negative influence. Do they make harmful comments? Do they fail to be supportive? Do they fail to contribute equally to the friendship? Do you find yourselves feeling better or worse after spending time with them? Are they draining you emotionally or financially? Really take a look at the overall effect the person is having on your life. Do they call you constantly to rattle off their problems, but never help you with yours? Have you offered countless solutions to help them out, but they never seem to take any advice? Do they continually visit without notice? If you have children, are they setting the type of example you want your children to view and uphold?
Once you've determined to what extent they are a problem, you'll need to figure out a way to dissolve the effect they are creating. The most effective way is to remove them from your relationship completely. That means no more communication, unless it is completely unavoidable. Unfortunately, you can't go around breaking off ties with every person you or your partner may find disagreeable. This is especially true if the trouble source is a family member, co-worker, long-time family friend or part of some other integral aspect of your life. In such cases, you will need to apply a more realistic approach.
First, you will need to cut off communication for as long as you possibly can. View this period of time as one of getting back to what's important…without the distractions. You need this time alone to remember what it's like without the interrupting influence and, to be honest, to unwind. You may only need a weekend or you may need a few weeks. You'll know when the time is right to make contact again. If you can't remove them, find a way to remove yourself for a short time as this alone time for you as a couple is extremely important.Secondly, you and your partner should talk about what expectations and feelings you have about this situation. Agree to some common ground rules. These could be anything from agreeing to only seeing the person once a month, or making sure you change the subject anytime they start to talk about something mutually unpleasant.
When you are ready to initiate contact again, find ways to limit their effect on you. For example, make the time you spend together limited, such as going to a movie, dinner or other social function. Meet them at the destination, and make sure they know ahead of time you need to leave when the function is over.Keep your contact in controlled environments such as the ones mentioned above. Don't invite them to your home unless absolutely necessary.
In the event it is necessary, arrange to have another friend or family member there to avoid unwanted communication. I wouldn't recommend telling the other person why they are there. The point is to have a neutral person (or people) there to limit any outbursts or behavior you do not desire.
Come across as a unified front. Make sure the person knows that if they are harassing one of you, they are harassing the both of you. Support each other first, and do not take sides. If you really disagree about something, do it in private where you can both talk about it openly and comfortably.
Lastly, realize that the only way someone can have a real negative effect on you is if you let them. Sometimes just knowing that you don't need to take what they say or do personally is enough to make the time spent with that person more pleasant. Remember to find the strength in each other to combat outside forces. Your relationship and your family unit should always come first.

---Is your relationship suffering from a negative influence...by Jennifer Good

When Will Love Be Through With Me?

2007-04-07T13:06:00.000+03:00

I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
To live again?

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could your Love do for me?
When will Love be through with me?

Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day when dreaming ends

Time Has Come Today

2007-03-20T20:32:00.000+03:00

"15 minutes..15 hours..inside the OR..the best surgeons make time fly..outside the OR, however..time takes pleasure in kicking our asses..for even the strongest of us..it seems to play tricks..slowing down, hovering, until it freezes..leaving us stuck in a moment, unable to move in one direction or the other..
Time heals all wounds, all any of us wants..is more time..time to stand up, time to grow up, time to let go..Time. "

~ Grey's Anatomy's Meredith

The End.

2007-03-15T16:20:00.000+03:00

" It's not easy to let go of something you've put everything into. But it's harder to realize later on that you've been holding on to something that wasn't there anymore. "

Installing Love

2007-03-02T18:26:00.000+03:00

Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support: What programs are running ?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you.

Happy-V day

2007-02-20T14:24:00.000+03:00

I believe that Love is a noble act of self-giving, offering trust, faith, and loyalty..
The more you love, the more you lose a part of yourself, yet you don't become less of who you are; you end up being complete with your loved ones..

Happy New Year!

2007-01-25T21:40:00.000+03:00

Once again it is time to make our New Year's Resolutions. Each year at this time we take an assessment of ourselves and declare our intention to change, however, most of us will fail at these efforts.

Why is it that we promise so much and achieve so little? Why do we fall short of our goals?
Perhaps the answer to these questions is found in the nature of New Year's Resolutions. The tradition is to look at those things which we don't like about ourselves - - our weight, smoking, lack of exercise, and general poor health practices. Or, our hectic stressed life styles, strained relationships, and lack of spiritual focus.

The problem with such assessment is that it is built upon a negative image of ourselves. The resulting resolutions tell us what we "should" do and don't focus on what we "want" to do. Typical New Year's resolutions are concerned with correcting the negative and not with enhancing the positive.
Maybe we need a new word for what we do each New Year -- not resolution but rather affirmation. Not "I resolve" but "I affirm." An affirmation is a positive statement and a declaration of things to be true. A resolution feels like something we should do whether or not we want to. An affirmation speaks to what we are already doing and want to do more of. While a resolution often makes us feel that we are not good enough, an affirmation emphasizes the positive aspects of ourselves.
What can you affirm about yourself for the coming year? What do you value about yourself and want to enhance? Is it your kindness to others, your continual wonder at the beauty of nature, or your sense of deep gratitude for all that you have. Perhaps it is your sincere appreciation for the love and support of your family. Maybe it involves your creativity or the courage you have for speaking up to correct a wrong. It might be your ability to be still and quiet which always brings a sense of reassuring peace to others.

This New Year take the time to assess the qualities that you like about yourself. What qualities would you like to strengthen? Make a list of them for your New Year's Affirmations and then share them with others, as you positively state and declare them to be true for the coming year.

~Daniel H. Johnston

YES WE DID IT!

2006-12-16T23:00:00.002+03:00

Qatar did it!

They put on the best Asian Games ever, the biggest Asian Games ever, the most widely reported Asian Games ever, the highest standard of Asian Games in terms of both sporting achievement and planning ever – and they even won some medals too. Qatar’s success on the field amazed everyone and leaves a legacy for the whole country and the wider Middle East. The 15th Asian Games was not just about putting Doha on the map in a sporting sense, but Qatar acted as flag bearer for the whole of the region. Never before had a Middle Eastern country and region staged anything on this scale. Now Qatar has done it, others will follow.

Because of you

2006-11-17T20:04:00.000+03:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard I've learned the hard way,
to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you

Sunscreen

2006-10-25T02:17:00.000+03:00

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…

I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth;
Oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….

You’re not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…
the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…
the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…

what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..

Dance…
even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on.

Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you.

Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it.

Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

2006-10-14T23:46:00.000+03:00

I Have a new Website in Multiply now!!
I dedicated it to the upcoming 15th Asian Games in Doha!!

promise to post the latest news,pix of the torch journey & videos..

I feel soo Proud!

RAMADAN MUBARAK

2006-09-25T00:46:00.000+03:00

Mubarak 3laikom Eshahar!!!

RAMADAN KAREEM WORLD

Last thing..

2006-08-26T22:03:00.000+03:00

Last TV show I've watched:
Freinds-Channel 4
every morning I get up,prepare my breakfast and dad's,then enjoy it while watching Freinds around 10 am..I've watched all the seasons beforebut I never get tired of Re-watching it again..Never,regret Freinds!!!hehehehe

Last book I've Read:
A widow for one year
Written by: Jon Irving
I just finished bend in the road by nicholas sparks,it was a real good book..now am starting this book which i got from a charity store in one pound only..it's intresting but can't figure out the story yet..am still in page 27!!!hehehehe...it's not that its boring,no..but maybe i didnt get time lately for reading..Never regret a book!

Last Vacation I took:
London-UK
Travel dates: 15th July 2006
I never took a vacation since I joined work 14th June 2003,so I really EARNED this one!!!

Last Movie I've watched:
Pirates of the Caraibbean
I went with my new freind Jane to a nearby cheap cinema,we enjoyed our time.

Last Music I've Listened to:
I'm here without you baby-3 Doors Down
every monring on my way to mommy I use the undergorund tube to go to Baker street,Kinda sad song,but I like it.

Last drink I had:
Hot Choclate!
in the Glocester Road station

Last food I had:
Pizza-margareta supreme
right after our outing to the museum with mom and jane & her sister.

Last person I've talked to:
My brother
He called us then my aunt followed right after him.

Last Person I chatted with:
-besides YOU-Ces
we just sat a date on Saturday to London's Towers & Big Ben!

Last Thing I think of before I sleep:
no hesitation-YOU-!!!

missing you-again!

2006-07-26T02:40:00.000+03:00

Wishing you were here,
Trying not to shed a tear,
Wanting to hold you near,
I lie awake at night,
Wondering what you're dreaming?
Being so far away,
On this drab and boring day,
My thoughts turn to you,
Trying to get through,
Without being blue.
Are you thinking of me?
Are our minds on the same thing?
These feelings inside,
So new, yet so tender.
Looking at your picture,
At least I can remember.
Time has no mercy!
Or it would bring you to me.
It would make the days fly,
The nights disappear,
And I wouldn't be sitting here
Missing you, dear.

madly deeply truely

2006-07-24T02:14:00.000+03:00

In the late of night,while am still a stranger in this darkness,I couldn't help but to open my pc and write few lines about you & for you..it's been a while since my last blog,although most of it was copied from inspirational qoutes,but this time I prefered to pour me into these lines..
8 days have past since last I saw ur smile (aside from our webmeetings it can never replace ur babyface).
8 days without hearing you,talking to you,feeling ur hands protecting me,holding me..I don't know how many more days before I go home..
Simply..I miss you..
I miss you soo much that it hurt and make me laugh at that,am really a drama queen, am I?
I know I'll be coming back again it's not am leaving for good..but really can't help missing you..
take the advantage please while am away..rest well,sleep well,workout well,be good..I know you've always been good,but it's my habit of reminding you of that,I don't mean anything I swear..I trust you more than I trust this world, even me sometimes..

I miss you truely..
the same missing when you are not around,when I don't hear anything from you,our couch,kuboz,the programmes we used to watch together,our time either online or on the phone,our outings,even if we don't have anything to buy,our laughs,our tears..our emotional fights,our peace and making up that comes afterward..
Deeply,I miss you..

today I really missed chatting with you,but fate didn't help us this time,with the problems I was having with my chat device,then the problem switched to urs..then it was on me again that I missed our chat date when I came late this evening..it really not ment tohappen.

Did you call your mom?it's her birthday today..mother is the most valuable person in life..
am really starting to lose it again,I just miss you baby..that's all

..I know you know!

till then...Gunyt po!

RELATIONSHIP SECRETS

2006-07-08T13:40:00.000+03:00

ANNIVERSARIES
Always celebrate! Whether it's the 1st or the 50th, each year together isa triumph.

APPRECIATION
Let each other know how much you appreciate each other.You may already know but hearing it from each other is always better.

BEST FRIENDS
Be best friends preferably before being boyfriend-girlfriend.Take time to know each other so the relationship will be a deep one.Tell each other about your crushes, dreams and problems.Make sure he/she is your best friend before getting engaged.The strong bond of friendship will help you both survive tough times.

BOND
Make it a point to spend time together often but leave room for each other. Also spend time alone w/ each other, so that at the end of the day you could both share your experiences. This way, you stay interesting with your partner.

CHANGING EACH OTHER
Don't marry an as...le, j.... or a bi.... (an unsuitable person) You'll never change each other.

COMPLIMENTS
Always compliment each other.This will prevent feelings of resentment & thinking that one is being taken for granted.

DATE
Keep doings things that you both enjoy, do them together.Make time & continue to date to keep the romance - look good, smell good to maintain physical attractionDIFFERENCESCelebrate differences. Never force your ideologies down each other's throat. Give up trying to turn your partner into you. Accept differences, appreciate them.

FIGHTS
Fight w/the aim to resolve the issue. Don't outdo each other.The longer you extend the fight. The more chances that you'll say something hurtful that you don't really mean. As mad as you were w/ your partner, he/she is still the person who laughs at your jokes & thinks you're hot.Hear each other out, don't dig up old issues. Choose your battles.Make sure the fight will be worth it & that something will change in the relationship as a result of the fight.

FLAWS
Know that the perfect person does not exist.Know that just as there are things that you love about him/her, there will be things that will make you go crazy. We are only human with our own flaws.

FUN
Have fun together! This means keeping the fun & spontaneity that was there in the early days. Allow yourselves to get silly - shower together, pee w/the door open etc. Being able to make each other laugh & see the lighter, crazier, absurd side is the best way to get through all the differences in personalities, adjustments in lifestyle & opposing viewpoints.

GOALS
Make sure you have similar goals.It would be difficult to keep your bond intact if your views are complete opposite.

GRUDGES
Quit tabulating grudges. Let it off. Discuss it, then trash it, don't recycle it.

KEEPING IT HOT
Keep it hot by traveling to diff. places together.A new setting will do wonders. Always have skin contact - be it holding hands, a massage or just plain leg rubbing.

HONESTY
Don't lie or hide things. The problem will only get bigger.

KNOW EACH OTHER
Learn each other's interest. It really keeps the conversation flowing!HUGA hug can be far better more intimate than a kiss.

IDENTITY
Don't lose your personality - that's why he/she fell in love w/you.Have separate interest & activities to keep your individual, & to be able to contribute more to the relationship.

INDEPENDENCE
Having your own income means you're the boss in your life.IN-LAWSMake rooms for the in-laws.

INTENTIONS
Wish each other well. Don't wish each other worst

ISSUES
Speak up about the awkward stuff now,like money & sex. The earlier, the better.LISTENListen, listen, listen. Hear each other out especially during arguments.

LOOK GOOD
Mind your appearance! Stay fit & healthy for each other.

LOVE
It all boils down to your love, chemistry & respect for each other.

MEMORIES
Remind each other of the old days. Do something that you used to do for each other before.It may even be corny but it made you two together.Experience new things together- from dining into a new restaurant to experiencing street food together to exploring to new places. It's the little surprises that make great memories.

MIND READING
No matter how long you've been together, do not think that you can read each other's mind.

NEEDS
Be good to yourself,then be good to your partner.That's what love is all about. Think about your partner. Will it make him/her happy? Will she/he enjoy it? Consider each other's feelings.Be very attentive & sensitive to each other's needs, physically & emotionally, that way your partner learns to do the same for you.Never take your partner for granted.

PRIORITIES
If one says it's important, then it is! Prioritize each other among other things!

SPACE
Give each other space. Have dates with your girlfriends, have your boy's night out.If you can't trust each other with this, then don't get married.SORRYSay sorry when you're wrong.

SURPRISES
No matter how long you've known each other, be open to surprises, both good or bad.

TEAMWORK
Think for two & always work as a team.Consult each other before making a decision because everything will always affect both of you.Strengthen couple power.In many ways, we have to decide based on what is best for the relationship in favor of our individual selves.

SUPPORT
Support each other's dream. Be willing to follow your passions, support your partner in his/her decisions & create new ones together.Two heads are better than one.

TALK
Tell each other's stories. Life goes by so fast & its easy to see how easily couple can grow apart.Whenever something funny, scary, exciting or juicy happened to you or to someone you know, tell each other about it & have your partner do the same. Keep each other in the loop of life, even by email if you have to.

*Communication is the main ingredient in successful long relationships. Share your feelings w/o judgments or criticism, active listening,then working up to a discussion for problem solving. It takes continuous effort & learning.

Thanx Hugsy,Labu!

A Piece of Advise :)

2006-06-19T19:20:00.000+03:00

Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life.

We can never turn back the pages of time, though we may wish to relieve a happy moment, or say goodbye just one last time, we never can, because the sands of time continue to fall, and we can't turn the hourglass over.

I know..

It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces. Each one is different, but they're always the same. They mean me no harm but its time that I face it, they'll never allow me to change... But, I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong... I'm moving on.

~Auther Unknown

My Tiger's Bday!

2006-06-10T14:17:00.000+03:00

Guess what!!

2006-06-02T14:49:00.000+03:00

Guess What's My True Color?
Take the test that is already distributed through email,it's fun when you'll be able to check ur friends results too!!!

Right!!!!

2006-05-26T17:42:00.000+03:00

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

Harmful People

2006-04-19T13:51:00.001+03:00

"Well-intentioned" people; nearly every couple knows at least one. In fact, we could all probably rattle off a few names in a matter of minutes. They are the ones that are constantly advising you about your partner's habits or lifestyle in the most well-meaning of tones; the ones who can't help but comment on some misfortune you've had or who mysteriously appear when they need something from you. And, they are the ones who are slowly, and not so silently, zapping the life and happiness from your relationship. The worst part is that you may not even realize it is happening!

The good news is there is a way to limit their effect on you and your relationship. It just takes a few conscious changes and an agreement as a couple to put those changes into effect.
The first step is to realize there is a problem. So, to start you'll need to understand how they are harmful to your relationship. Before taking any action, decide what it is about that person that is a negative influence. Do they make harmful comments? Do they fail to be supportive? Do they fail to contribute equally to the friendship? Do you find yourselves feeling better or worse after spending time with them? Are they draining you emotionally or financially? Really take a look at the overall effect the person is having on your life. Do they call you constantly to rattle off their problems, but never help you with yours? Have you offered countless solutions to help them out, but they never seem to take any advice? Do they continually visit without notice? If you have children, are they setting the type of example you want your children to view and uphold?

Once you've determined to what extent they are a problem, you'll need to figure out a way to dissolve the effect they are creating. The most effective way is to remove them from your relationship completely. That means no more communication, unless it is completely unavoidable. Unfortunately, you can't go around breaking off ties with every person you or your partner may find disagreeable. This is especially true if the trouble source is a family member, co-worker, long-time family friend or part of some other integral aspect of your life. In such cases, you will need to apply a more realistic approach.

First, you will need to cut off communication for as long as you possibly can. View this period of time as one of getting back to what's important…without the distractions. You need this time alone to remember what it's like without the interrupting influence and, to be honest, to unwind. You may only need a weekend or you may need a few weeks. You'll know when the time is right to make contact again. If you can't remove them, find a way to remove yourself for a short time as this alone time for you as a couple is extremely important.Secondly, you and your partner should talk about what expectations and feelings you have about this situation. Agree to some common ground rules. These could be anything from agreeing to only seeing the person once a month, or making sure you change the subject anytime they start to talk about something mutually unpleasant.

When you are ready to initiate contact again, find ways to limit their effect on you. For example, make the time you spend together limited, such as going to a movie, dinner or other social function. Meet them at the destination, and make sure they know ahead of time you need to leave when the function is over.Keep your contact in controlled environments such as the ones mentioned above. Don't invite them to your home unless absolutely necessary.

In the event it is necessary, arrange to have another friend or family member there to avoid unwanted communication. I wouldn't recommend telling the other person why they are there. The point is to have a neutral person (or people) there to limit any outbursts or behavior you do not desire.

Come across as a unified front. Make sure the person knows that if they are harassing one of you, they are harassing the both of you. Support each other first, and do not take sides. If you really disagree about something, do it in private where you can both talk about it openly and comfortably.

Lastly, realize that the only way someone can have a real negative effect on you is if you let them. Sometimes just knowing that you don't need to take what they say or do personally is enough to make the time spent with that person more pleasant. Remember to find the strength in each other to combat outside forces. Your relationship and your family unit should always come first.

Please Note: This article does not take into consideration roommates, friends or family members living with you. These topics will be covered in a future feature. If you'd like to share your experiences with this type of situation for our upcoming feature, e-mail the author.

---Is your relationship suffering from a negative influence...by Jennifer Good

Are You in Love?

2006-04-14T16:12:00.000+03:00

Is someone in LOVE...!?!?! by Dontphunkwithmylove
Name:
Favorite Color:
Is someone in LOVE with you, right now?	Love at first sight! aww!
Are you in LOVE, right now?	Yes!
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spontaneousity

2006-03-21T21:58:00.001+03:00

honey
honeyko
honeykong
honeybi
hnb
hmb
hmbkong
...
...
...
it's ALL names..
Just names..
Does it ALL lead to one thing???
am still wondering?
am still asking why?
deep inside..I know

but..

I will forever be..

Luvu bb

three...

2006-03-21T21:53:00.000+03:00

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back -
Time
Words
Opportunity

Three things in life that may never be lost -
Peace
Hope
Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable -
Love
Self-confidence
Friends

Three things in life that are never certain -
Dreams
Success
Fortune

Three things that make a man/woman -
Hard work
Sincerity
Commitment

Hello?&%$#$!!?

2006-03-06T21:53:00.000+03:00

playground school bell rings againrain clouds come to play againhas no one told you she's not breathing?hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk tohello
if i smile and don't believesoon i know i'll wake from this dreamdon't try to fix me i'm not brokenhello i'm the lie living for you so you can hidedon't cry
suddenly i know i'm not sleepinghello i'm still hereall that's left of yesterday...

by Evanescence

2006-03-03T11:14:00.000+03:00

It is a curious fact that people are never so trivial as when they take themselves seriously

- Oscar Wilde

What I have for tonight..

2006-02-24T23:06:00.000+03:00

What I have for tonight before I close my eyes and go to sleep..is worth all the treasures in the world..I have a pure heart and a free mind..a loving soul for all the universe..
What I have tonight and every night before I go to dreamland..is YOU..yes baby I have you,and this fact make me the happiest woman on earth...

Happy Love Day to All!

2006-02-14T01:19:00.000+03:00

"Grow old along with me, the best is yet to be."

- Robert Browning

What more can I ask for?

2006-02-04T18:24:00.000+03:00

I want you to know;I am really Happy to have the kind of friendship I have with you :)
I love it because It's true and real and trusting.
Because it does my heart and soul good to know that I'm going to be here for you and you for me..
When there are needs that need to be tended to, when there are feelings that need to be felt,and when there are smiles that simply need to be shared in the company of someone who really cares.
I don't know if I could ever completely describe to you how important our friendship is to me,But it is so much a part of all that is good in my world,Sometimes you feel like a gift That was given to my days to make sure that they would always have some happiness in them,more than once,I have felt that I wouldn't trade for anything anytime,anywhere.

I have dreams in my life that may never come true,travels I may never take, goals I may not be able to reach,and hopes that might always be just Beyond my horizons.
But I want you to know that whether my wishes come true or whether they disappear altogether,I will always feel like one of the luckiest people in the world
because I have someone like you..a friend in you.

And because we're going to be Best Friends Forever

Falling...

2006-01-08T17:38:00.000+03:00

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we can seek answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache
and pain, nor the future with it's untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness's are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter and joy.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge
I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you
ask.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are I can only love you and be your friend.

-Author Unknown-

when bubwit sings

2006-01-07T22:05:00.000+03:00

I sang today!

I have been singing since I was 4 years of age. My dad was bragging infront of his friends showing me off; my mom was allowing me to help her in the kitchen only if i sing; at school, my teachers always choose me in those lil' activities that required singing and dancing!and I enjoy it!Today I sang myself out loud, with kuting's new toy ,Karaoke, who ever invented that system is brilliant, I couldn't stop myself from going on and on with every song, felt like flying with the music..
kutingsky, I'm ready for the duet!!hehehehehe

when she sings..everone else listen

pmsing..

2005-12-29T21:36:00.000+03:00

"What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal."

at the end..wer aint angels :(

Don't Be Sad

2005-12-27T22:48:00.000+03:00

{ They Think That Every Cry is Against Them }

(Qur'an 63:4)

Don't Carry The Weight of the Globe on your Shoulders.....

Currently Reading....

my trip to Riyadh

2005-12-03T12:12:00.000+03:00

I was busy preparing for my coming trip to Riyadh..I was drained physically and emotionally,torn between excitement,frustration,fear and anticipation!

although everything is working as we planned but still can't help myself from that nasty feeling of "what if something go wrong!!!??"

Let's just pray that it will work INSHA ALLAH!

AM ON MY WAY TO RIYADH!!!

A Slice Of Life

2005-11-25T22:20:00.000+03:00

While I was browsing the web,I found this intersting article of a very intresting Auther..share it with me:

"They say you can't judge a book by its cover. I say, hogwash. We size people up all the time based on the clothes they wear, the car they drive, the music they listen to. It's just that those cues aren't accurate. And so after hours spent in various pizza parlors, dorm rooms and food courts, I decided the only true and reliable way to judge people should be based on the pizza they eat.

This being an obviously huge anthropological breakthrough, my colleagues and I conducted extensive research in this regard. In fact, we recently wrote the Definitive Guide to Judging People Based On The Pizza They Eat. A six-volume study of psychological profiling we hoped would be published in the Harvard Journal Of Pizza and Social Psychology (whose editorial offices are coincidentally located in the Harvard House of Pizza) or maybe used by the FBI to catch a serial killer or something cool like that. It was summarily rejected by both parties. We turned to the next best thing . . . orkut media. The following are excerpts from that work.

Plain Cheese: Loved by some. Appreciated by all.

The Good News: People who order plain cheese are solid. They're reliable. They're the backbone of their family and/or workplace. In fact, they're often called upon when no one else in the room can make a decision. And do they want credit? No, damn it, they just want to get the job done.

The Bad News: Due to their lack of imagination, people who order plain cheese have a hard time getting noticed. When they walk into a room, people often say…well, whatever they were about to say when that person walked into the room. And the last time a funny story was told about them, it ended with . . . actually, you know what, there's never been a funny story told about them.

Little known fact: They enjoy reading little known facts.
Favorite Beverage: Water
Fashion item they can't live without: Khakis.

Ham and Pineapple: There's always one in the crowd.

The Good News: Fun and quirky, they're the life of the party. They take pride in being different. They've recently been described as "cute". In fact, their name probably ends with "i." People either love them or hate them and you know what? They're okay with that.

The Bad News: Let's just say, people who like Ham and Pineapple are not for everyone. Even those that like them say their personality wears thin after a while. Their laugh has been described as infectious. Well, that and annoying. Sometimes when they're described to people who don't know them, they make a scrunched up face and say "ewww."

Little known fact: They sing in front of the mirror.
Favorite Beverage: Appletini.
Fashion item they can't live without: Ankle tattoo.

The Works: They want it all.

The Good News: People who order the works look to get the most out of life, always searching for that edge. Never satisfied, they look for new and different ways to get their kicks. Go-getters and optimists, to them the glass is always half full. And if it's not, they snap their fingers at the nearest waitress and make it so.

The Bad News: During their all-consuming quest for more, they often disregard things like "ethics," "people's feelings" and "federal laws." To put it kindly, their morals are as flexible as a rubber hose. Pizza alone won't fill that dark, empty feeling they have deep inside them.

Little known fact: If they were in traffic right now, they'd be trying to merge.
Favorite Beverage: Venti Triple Shot Caramel Machiatto.
Fashion item they can't live without: Wrap-around shades.

Sausage and onion: Not afraid of an honest day's work.

The Good News: Sausage and Onion people are regular, down to earth folk. Well-liked by all except for maybe a few of those damn hippie-type vegetarians. They've been slapped on the back many-a-time. And they probably have a one-syllable nickname like, Bud or Suze or Joe.

The Bad News: Not everyone feels comfortable around them. Some people don't quite "get" them. Sausage and Onion people often laugh at their own jokes. Usually before they tell them. And let's be honest, they've belched inappropriately more than a few times. They also look back fondly on their mullet days.

Little known fact: Something they're wearing right now has a hole in it.
Favorite Beverage: A Cold Brewski.
Fashion item they can't live without: Wallet chain.

Pepperoni: I'll have what he's having.

The Good News: Congratulations to Pepperoni Lovers. They are all slightly above average. Thanks to them, gears turn. Wheels spin. Papers get pushed. They've managed to carve their niche amongst the B+'s of the population. We applaud their efforts to rise above. No matter how slightly.

The Bad News: Like most people they want to try something new and different, they just can't think of what. They often strive for the best and achieve…well, mixed results. In other words, they are the Kevin Costners of society. Who they happen to be a big fan of. They're also good at telling funny stories. About stuff that happens to other people.

Little known fact: They secretly enjoy Olympic figure skating.
Favorite Beverage: Diet Coke.
Fashion item you can't live without: Loose-Fit Jeans

Meat Lover: I don't know when to stop.

The Good News: A pleasure-seeker, they get enjoyment from all that life offers. Especially if it involves meat. They're friendly and gregarious and constantly on the hunt for things that make them happy. Especially meat-related. They've also used the word party as a verb sometime within the past two years.

The Bad News: Taking pleasure in what life offers? Good. Overindulging to the point that women and small children must avert their eyes? Not good. Their precarious hold on will power means there will probably be an intervention and/or a series of heart attacks somewhere in their future.

Little known fact: They can name three of the ingredients in Jaegermeister.
Favorite Beverage: Cuervo Gold
Fashion item they can't live with out: Extra napkins

Black Olives: Misunderstood genius.

The Good News: An individual to the core, they march to their own drummer. Dance to their own tune. They've recently paid too much for a vintage t-shirt. And they do things that other people find eccentric. Sometimes because that's who they are, but mostly just to annoy us.

The Bad News: Yes, they're a misunderstood genius. Unfortunately it's in the Pauly Shore kind of way, not the Van Gogh-Einstein kind of way. This will certainly hinder their future plans to hog the limelight. But there's always hope. Their application to be on reality TV has been accepted.

Little known fact: They're not wearing any underwear.
Favorite Beverage: Chai
Fashion item they can't live without: Back pack.

Anchovies: Unpredictable.

People who order anchovies are psychotic and dangerous. Do not approach them or try to be friends with them.

UPDATE:

The author of this study would like apologize to any and all pizza-eaters. He acknowledges that the profiles contained therein are grossly inaccurate and woefully under-researched. He also acknowledges that a profile of an individual cannot and should not be deduced from the type of pizza he or she may enjoy. Ice cream is clearly a more accurate and fruitful litmus."

Find!

2005-11-19T13:02:00.000+03:00

Check My latest Blog entry...
u know where to find it!!!

deepest shade of blue..

2005-11-01T00:54:00.000+03:00

"oh I ..in my deepest shade of blue.."

am not rilly sick,but I feel not okay inside,for the last couples of days..am blaming my monthly friend for this..but,madre...I shud learn how to guard myself sometimes..when it comes to mi and Rltnshps with the outer world..am giving all and expecting all..it's no good..
even 2 bars of Kitkat didn't help me feel better,but my best budd' "hugsy" made me smile at the end,she baught me a book by one of my new-become favo auther,I was soo happy cuz it becomes my hubby these days..my refuge..takes me to another time & place..there's nothing more wounderful than putting ur nightlights on and curled in ur warm bed alone with a book...

I miss my book....

Gunyt ....

Ghost from the Past!

2005-10-14T22:06:00.000+03:00

I had a dream Last night...

I was afraid cuz it was so dark
Dark deep sky & sea sorrounding me,
I fear the water cuz am a desert gurl,
I was flying around a gray light boat,
I wanted to stay away
but arms were reaching out
from the boat to keep me close
The ghost grabbed me.

I felt his needs of keeping me around
But I was scared..trying hard
I freed myself and flied away
The ghost looked at me with misty eyes
"I'm lonely" said gently..
But I kept on flying away
The arms reached out
for me again
Imprison me tightly
in a firm grip

I wept inside for I wana go
begging the ghost to fly me away
My voice was low,
my throat was dry..
I struggled my way out
Fly for a while
To be captured again

I screamed without words,
Ghost from the past
please let me go
Live your life & let us be
Ghost from the past
why can't you stop
I am happy can't you see the lights?
didn't you know that
this is not my place?

Ghost from the past couldn't accept defeat
For he is stubborn & selfish
only thinks of himslef..
'til when will you keep hunting us?
Stop creepin' under my bed.

Ghost from the past
You were never part of me
Ghost from the past
you were just a stranger to me

and that's all you'll ever be!!!

with a hidden will,I freed my wings
and fluttered high,leaving the Ghost alone..

My Cherished Friend

2005-10-07T15:04:00.000+03:00

The stars in heaven shine so bright,
but did you know you were my light?
You helped me grow, you set me free,
you always saw the best in me.
And did you know when days were sad,
you always cared, my heart was glad.
My thoughts of you are always sweet,
and you have made my life complete.
You are my blanket from the storm,
your kind embrace will keep me warm.
No matter where our lives may go,
there is one thing that you should know.
That I will cherish my whole life through,
the heartfelt days I've spent with you.

Diana Louise Player
Copyright 1998

10 Secrets to Fulfilling Relationships

2005-09-20T21:01:00.000+03:00

1. The first secret? the power of THOUGHT.

Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships.
Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about ourselves and others. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires.

2. The second secret? the power of GIVING.

If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship, ask not what the other person will be able to give to you, but rather what will you be able to give them.
The secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.

3. The third secret? the power of RESPECT.

You can't love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask yourself, "What do I respect about myself?" To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself "What do I respect about them?"

4. The fourth secret? the power of FRIENDSHIP.

To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not consist of gazing into each other's eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love them for who they are, not what they look like. Friendship is the soil through which love's seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a relationship, you must first bring friendship." Love is Friendship set on Fire".

5. The fifth secret? the power of LETTING GO.

If you love something, let it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours; if it doesn't, it never was. Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. "Today I let go of all my fears, the past has no power over me - today is the beginning of a new life."

6. The sixth secret? the power of COMMUNICATION.

When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: "I Love You." Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word -it could be the last time you see them! If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and ... why are you waiting?

7. The seventh secret? the power of COMMITMENT.

If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.

8. The eighth secret? the power of PASSION.

Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone, it comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences when you felt passionate. Spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The essence of love and happiness are the same; all we need to do is to live each day with passion.

9. The ninth secret? the power of TOUCH.

Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

10. The tenth secret? the power of TRUST.

Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it, one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the other person feels trapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust them completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself, "Do I trust them completely and unreservedly?" If the answer is "no", think carefully before making a commitment.

For All Of My Life

2005-09-07T00:11:00.000+03:00

Come and lay here beside me
I’ll tell you how I feel
There’s a secret inside me
I’m ready to reveal

To have you close embrace your heart
With my love
Over and over
These are things that I promise
My promise to you

For all of my life
You are the one, I will love you
Faithfully forever
All of my life you are the one
I’ll give to you my greatest love
For all of my life

Let me lay down beside you
There’s something you should know
I pray that you decide to
Open your heart and let me show
Enchanted world and fairy tales
A wonderland of love
These are things that I promise
My promise to you

All of my life

These are things that I promise

-MahaLbi

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!

2005-09-03T15:52:00.000+03:00

Lemar's song

2005-09-01T15:42:00.000+03:00

I snatch this song from Cowy's(I always do that!;D)
I found myslef listening to it more than 30 mints,
it has a real deep meaning..

thought of sharing it with you...
it goes:

What if I took my time to love you?
What if I put no one above you?
What if I did the things
That really mattered?
What if I ran through
Hoops of disaster?

No one would care if
We never made it
We're in this alone
So why don't we face it
There is no room to
Blame one another
We just need time to
Forgive each other

What about LOVE?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make
life worth living?

What about FAITH?
What about TRUST?
And tell me baby...what about US?

How can I give this
Love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain?
It's never ending
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we
Should be keep calling

I'll take the rivers rise
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster

Life is a Process of Finding Love

2005-08-29T21:20:00.000+03:00

Every person will need to find four people in their life. First person is yourself; Second person is the one you love most, Third person is the one who love you most, And the fourth, is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who love you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with. Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.

The one you love most doesn't love you. The one, who loves you most, is never the one you love most. And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who loves you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

Which person are you in other people's life? - No person will purposely have a change of heart. At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you. But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore. When he loves you, he can pretend that he doesn't.

Same goes, when he loves you no more, there is no way he can pretend he loves you. When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him. If you also don't love him anymore, don't ever let him leave just to save your pride. If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it. If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him. And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in your life. If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points, and the bad. You can wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can change to become what you like him to be, you don t love him anymore.

Whenyou really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him, you only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you. Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.

Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn’t strong, then you can only admit defeat. Real love will never become hate...

---This is an English translation from a piece written by one famous Taiwanese author, Zhang Xiao Xian. Taken off Xiao Qiang's site. Quite true, poignant & something very thought provoking. It’s sad that life is often like this but we have to make do & hope that it will turn out for the best.

Be my Friend

2005-08-20T19:17:00.000+03:00

How lovely if we could remain..friends!
For every single woman needs a hand of a friend...
Be my friend...
Be my friend...

My hobbies are small..
My expectations are small..
And my only ambition is to walk
For hours
With you..
Under the rain...

When the blues dwell in me..
And the flute makes me cry...
Be my friend..
Be my friend..

Then why do u care about my face?
And you don't feel my inner thoughts
Be my friend..
Be my friend..

So speak up now
And tell me
How come you forgot half the words
When we met?

I am in so much need
For a peace port
And I am so tired
Of all the love stories and romance

Be my friend..
Be my friend..

*****

this is one of my favo arabic ballad & was roughly translated from our Kwaity poet:Suad Al.Subah

I just thought of sharing it with the world..

-foot print