A Letter to Tiny Ko..

My Little One..My cute furry ball..

Today, you were supposed to complete with us 33 weeks..

In your short life with us, 8 months, You brought joy to us and to everyone around you, you know we looked after you well. We gave you the best of all..your treats & foods, your toys, ur new wheel from nay that you didn't have the chance to wear it & tear it just like ur old one..ur purple seesaw, that was ur favorite, ur tiny hammy house that was made only for you..

Did you know that nay was going to make a new toy for you during this break? nice and colorful big puzzle so that you can play around freely?

But you got sick and refused to eat..and we took you to the best vet in the country who did everything she can to save ur tiny life..you survived the 2 surgeries..you were a brave one..your wounds were healing perfectly..you tolerated the daily injections and checkups, but you still wont eat..ur chubby body became skinny & you didn't have the strength to play or move around anymore..seeing you like this was breaking my heart and nay's..you refused to eat..food was soo painful for you..living was soo painful for you..you wanted us to let you go..and that's what we did..

One of the hardest decisions that we took in our lives..

was putting you to sleep..

One of the greatest gifts we can give you is to know when the time has come that it does not have a life that it wants to keep living. We felt ur needs somehow of our support to leave us.. and simply we were holding you and letting you know it is OK to go..I know it was enough to let you slip away feeling our love around you.

If you cannot feed urself and don't want to move then ur body was telling u that the time has come. even if you were too young to die.. we must decide and in our heart we knew that this was the right decision..

As we took you to the vet, holding you in my hand, comfy and warm with ur little blanket. As you go when the time comes. you know we helped you have peace when you needed it most.

In my arms, and with nay close by to comfort you..We saw you resisting for life until the end..you gasped your last breath around 3pm.

We took your fragile body home with us..we cleaned you with our tears and prepared your comfy bed to rest in peace, with your favorite colors & bedding..as we kissed you goodbye, we gently put your helpless body inside your tiny house, your favorite hideout..with a note from mommy & nay..that we will see you again someday..

Next was looking for you perfect spot..

In you short life with us..we've always wanted to take you to the park to play with the grass..but I was so protective of you that I was afraid sun will hurt ur rainbow eyes..but now ur gone..and nothing can harm you anymore, I promise..

We choosed your eternal spot..nice and green, between two big trees, sun is up..weather is fine, birds are singing your melody..as nay was digging with her hands and soul..

I was humming ur last lullaby before you sleep..

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true..

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

Now my Little One, you left us to be in a better place, the Rainbow Bridge, a beautiful place for all animals who leaves our nasty world, you are safe and warm now, my baby..I know ur playing joyfully in the grass, climbing up the trees, eating your favorite food, making friends with your new playmates..

Rest in Peace, Little One...Mommy & Nay will always LOVE you..