My Story!

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There Are Many Books In The Library..
Each Book Has A Wonderful Story..
A Story That Will Never Happen In Reality..
But,As You Fall In Love..
Reality Becomes A beautiful Story..
Better Than Any Novel..!!

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coming soon....

The Ugly Duckling-Part 2

You

You are friendly, kind & caring
Sensitive, loyal & understanding
Humorous, fun, secure & true
Alwayz there...yes that's u

Special, accepting, exciting & wise
Truthful & helpful..with honest brown eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful & bright
Yes, that's u..not one bit of spite

Your one of a kind..different from others
Generous,charming..but not one that smothers.
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy & game
But, not just another in the long chain

Appreciative, warm & precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old

You'll always be there..I know thats true..

I'll always be here..always for you..

(... This one for GentleTouch ...)

I'm Just Imagining If You Were There

This heart is whining inside... has no clue about how 2 help himself...your love keeps me up every night...whenever I walk in the crowd alone...I bow my head and shed a tear.. for your vision is still there..I feel that u r walking away from me...but suddenly u stop...u turn back...& then you gaze at me..& draw a shiny smile on your face 2 dry my tears...2 tell me that we'llnever be apart...

yeah yeah we'll never be apart!!!

Late at night I walk alone in the dark...I look up at the sky...I see a glaring moon... I see you inside...sending your whispers to heal my wounds...assuring me that I'll follow you soon...

yeah yeah I'll follow you soon!!!

As I walk on the beach barefooted...as the fresh breeze plays with my hair softly...as I hear the sea gull's sounds... As I follow your footprints...as u take my hand & walk beside me...

As I feel your warm touch *squeezing*...as you sustain me with an unspoken language...I raise my head & feel a special new ray of hope...

yeah yeah there'll be a new ray of hope!!!

why do I feel that you're my angel?why do I feel that you're my only light in this dark room???

why do I need to see your smile & u only brought me pain???why do I love your name & u just don't know mine?why do I always write about you & you never mention that you still care???why why can't I ignore you???

why has everything turned out wrong?

Late @Night.11-18-2004

*posted from mimi's Home Archive

Wala Lang!

When the lighthouse beam
Of my smile
Sweeps across your face
I know you'll watch it
Just long enough
To save yourself
From those rocks.
(This is not an allegory.)

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When still to you,
From your distant coast
I am just a function
Of mathematics
I still cannot understand
I am the loveliest cosine??
(This is not an apologue.)

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I am the gears. I grease
Your wheels. She says the way things work
"Is by admitting or opening away."
She says "I believe
Forever in the hooks.
The way things work
Is that eventually something catches."
She explains such things so clearly.
(This is not a parable.)

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I am tired of symbolizing
I am tired of making these analogues
Masks for the faces
I am afraid of seeing
Bed sheets hung over real ghosts??
I am tired of apologizing.
(This is not an imagining.)

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Good morning ,Love!
It is enough for me to be your runway.
(This is not a metaphor.)




*From mimi's Home Arcive ,December 10, 2004

Sad in December!

When I fall asleep I dream that you're next to me and I can feel your hand above my skin..The walk home smelled like fall. I don't want the day end bcoz i wanna hang out with you all day and fool around with you all night, then sleep till noon and do it again.

Sometimes there are things about me that I wish I could change. I think I'm going to be very sad in December. The thing that scares me the most is that one day I might be the one singing:" Protected From The Rain".


I like it when you spend time with me.

Nytnyt Hon! I hope the insomnia isn't bad.



*posted from mimi's Home Archive(in a very cold night!), November 22, 2004

color of the night

You and I moving in the dark..
Bodies close but souls apart..
Shadowed smiles and secrets unrevealed..
I need to know the way you feel..
I'll give you everything I am..
And everything I want to be..
I'll put it in your hands..
If you could open up to me..
Oh,Can't we ever get beyond this wall?!
'Cause all I want is just once..
To see you in the light..
But you hide behind The color of the night..
I can't go on running from the past..
Love has torn away this mask..
And now like clouds..
Like rain I'm drowning andI blame it all on you..
I'm lost!God save me...
'Cause all I want is just once..
Forever and again I'm waiting for you,
I'm standing in the light,
But you hide behind
The color of the night..
Please come out from..The color of the night..

*From mimi's Home Archive ,30 Oct 2004

Soul Talk

How can you be so much in love & all you feel is pain? and it hurts so much you cry, until you don't have anymore tears left to cry.. Oh how your overwhelmed with fear, the fear of losing this new feeling, emotion, sensation, satisfaction you have never known befor! In fact it's so far from anything you've ever felt, it's unexplainable, and even you aren't sure if this great new feeling could be real.
Could this be love or just lust? You're frustration grows cause you aren't sure you'll ever know what love is. Still you go on day to day feeling as though you could spend the rest of your life with this one special person!When he's not around you're sad and your everything but yourself.

You've become so confused! Not knowing wheither to lock these feelings away or try to explain them, just makes you even more confused. Maybe it's just one of those things only time can tell. Still you feel like you owe yourself to this person ,but..you aren't sure that all you have to give is enough.
Maybe the curiosity alone is a sign but, when will you know what the sign means?!!Until now..tomorow is not clear to me,until now i don't want to ask for more than what i have right now,until now ghosts still huanting me at night, and in my dreams.
How will my dreams come true without demanding for making them ?how will i know thats He loves me inreturn without hearing it from his mouth?how..when..and why?
Still its a long way home..the journey has just go on!


*This was posted from mimi's Home Archive , 31st October,2004

Close Your Eyes

Close your eyes; what do you see?Do you see what's really there,Or do you see what you expect there to be?It's more than blood and bone we share.Reveal our heart, our soul, our mind...We're all the same when you are blind;Blind to color, beauty, weight and height.There's more to see than just with sight.So close your eyes and see what's there;You see more blind than when you stare.Close your eyes and open your mind...We're not so different when you are blind.


by Alison Rotmark

Love's a Stream that Knows No Borders

Love's a stream that knows no borders..

Passports..Visas..Lengths of stay..

Laws and papers.. Rules and orders..

All these lies it sweeps away..
Love knows no color.. race.. or creed..

Spilling over states at will..

Submerging memory in need..

Drowning walls in waters still..
No bar can block it as it flows..

Tumbling towards eternity..

Gathering wisdom as it goes..

Yearning for our common sea..

*this was posted & published by: GentleTouch , 14th Jan. 2005

The Ugly Duckling

In most of my life I had this constant idea about me being ugly. This feeling started in my childhood, comparing myself to my other sisters, my friends and every time I look at my baby pictures. My insecurities trapped my mirror of me in a chest. I lived my life waiting for something BIG to happen, for a dream which was not clear to me...
When I was 5 years old, I was an unusual child, curious, talkative, naughty, funny…yearns for attention and sad! I felt there's something missing in me, Barbie doll was not my favorite playmate, and it reminds me always with what I was missing. Stuffed teddy bears were my friends. . I realized, at the time I learned reading, I learned that the real beauty comes from the inside, no matter what the external shape looks like.
At the age of 7, I saw The Ugly Duckling for the 1st time in a TV program. I start to fall in love with that little duckling who was not fit into his own world. I felt the same... As I was growing older and my unrest grow with me this name was attached to my behavior, and I started to love being called with it. In my early teen years, I found myself get stuck in troubles very often. I refer that to my sense of offering help! Although my intentions were good and sincere, still it was difficult for those who don't know me to understand the way I act. Until now! And like that little duckling, I was not fit into my own surrounding; I was waiting for something great to happen in my life. I always believed that, not because of my dad's words: "you will grow up one day to be someone great", not because of my best friend words" I predict you will be someone special in the future". It was a hope I found my self living with it day by day, holding on to it every night before I go to sleep, and every time I feel blue.
In my high school days, I felt it coming, that feeling of anticipation, for something was not known to me... Something good was about to happen. In less than 1 year, I had the privilege to study abroad, to achieve higher education. I spent 5 beautiful years of my life outside my homeland. I learned a lot through these years. I tumbled more, but I managed to stand and pull myself together again. Because there was always that strong feeling of something good that will come along the way, wherever I go, whenever I fall. I had my share in falling in love with all its different types & names, or that's what I thought! Coz even during that beautiful time, I knew this was not what I was waiting for. This was not my dream. Although being loved in return was a wonderful feeling no one can ask for more, but something was missing. I was happy, but I didn't reach my absolute happiness! I was hurt, but not perfectly!
Until...
On June 14th 2003, I felt it's coming to me. A very beautiful thing was a bout to change my life, forever!

To be continued…


the ugly duckling herself @ age of 5!